As promised I share with you today an older dream that is a very precious experience of Jesus. It is one that made me realize what empty rattling tin cups we are without God. I share it to bear witness to the truth of the spiritual life, the existence of God and His Son, Jesus and to allow it to be a beacon of light. I do so in service to you, so that in the busyness of your life, you may not overlook the fulfillment and beauty that is to be found in the sincere search for God. This experience is one my Spiritual Director has called a night vision:
Explosion of Love
DECEMBER 14, 2002
I dreamed I was lying in my bed sleeping (which I was!). All of a sudden Jesus (in spirit form) came in the door of my bedroom. He was see-through and clear, but with a definite shape: as if I was seeing a spirit like a ghost, but He was completely clear – not one spot. I knew Him instantly with great joy and spontaneous recognition and I said to Him, “Jesus!!!”
I looked up as He came to hover over me and He opened His arms (still in spirit form, but I knew what He was doing) and when He did I felt the most huge and overwhelming explosion of love come from His chest and envelop and invade me. I strained absolutely every fibre of my being upward toward Him and was begging Him to take me higher into union with Him. I felt all of my being rise and merge with Him in such love as I’ve never seen or felt on this earth.
Everything on this earth is a poor substitute that we try to fill ourselves with. The love was an absolutely indescribable feeling – human words cannot say – just an agonizing aagghhh! I’m not sure how long it lasted or if I spoke after this. As the Presence lifted there was left at the end of the dream a very large, but very thin gold cross hovering over me. I stared at it. It was shiny and jeweled – very beautiful and delicate looking.
When I awoke the feeling of immense love and awe stayed with me and I felt ‘Oh My God!’ I am so much deeper in love with Jesus now…He is the most beautiful Thing I have ever seen!!! This dream/vision left me feeling that I am just an empty rattling tin cup that can only be filled by Him and that Love…
As I contemplated the dream and the cross that was left over me, I pondered its meaning and prepared myself for a cross to bear that would be coming. It was a series of painful events that lasted and culminated January 2. In the worst of my pain January 2nd, at the height of what I now realize was a very fruitful, purifying spiritual trial, one of my children brought me a beautiful six-sided Sacred Heart medallion. The picture on the medallion was of Jesus pointing to His Sacred Heart (it was almost like a sign to remind me of this dream!) It was in the same silver as my necklace, complete with a ring to put it on the chain and it perfectly matched my chain and other medallions. It comforted me immediately and I put it on with the others. They found it in an area I had just vacuumed and I know it did not belong to anyone else in the house.
I have found that this is just one of the ways that God consoles, even in the process of the purifying trials we go through – He does not leave you alone on the hard journey of holiness, as many experiences I will be sharing with you in future will show…
Karen
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