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With today’s writing I would like to highlight the extreme power each individual has as an intercessor in prayer.  The definition of an Intercessor is:

a person who intervenes on behalf of another, especially by prayer.”

As spiritual beings living in a physical world, we have yet to fully understand the true nature of our ability to intercede in events through directed thought – ie. prayer.  But that doesn’t mean our power as intercessors is any lessened.  All that is required is faith and trust…and a little bit of pixie dust?

I don’t mean to be facetious, but what ‘if‘ your prayer could literally sprinkle graces where they were needed because your trust and faith was profound and the third person of the Trinity, the Holy Spirit, had a vehicle to do profound work?  I am reminded of the faith of the Centurion:

Matthew 8:5-13New International Version (NIV)

The Faith of the Centurion
5 When Jesus had entered Capernaum, a centurion came to him, asking for help. 6 “Lord,” he said, “my servant lies at home paralyzed, suffering terribly.”

7 Jesus said to him, “Shall I come and heal him?”

8 The centurion replied, “Lord, I do not deserve to have you come under my roof. But just say the word, and my servant will be healed. 9 For I myself am a man under authority, with soldiers under me. I tell this one, ‘Go,’ and he goes; and that one, ‘Come,’ and he comes. I say to my servant, ‘Do this,’ and he does it.”

10 When Jesus heard this, he was amazed and said to those following him, “Truly I tell you, I have not found anyone in Israel with such great faith. 11 I say to you that many will come from the east and the west, and will take their places at the feast with Abraham, Isaac and Jacob in the kingdom of heaven. 12 But the subjects of the kingdom will be thrown outside, into the darkness, where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth.”

13 Then Jesus said to the centurion, “Go! Let it be done just as you believed it would.” And his servant was healed at that moment.”  Matthew 8:5-13

But how does one get this kind of faith?  The answer is by seeking the One behind the veil – Jesus.  Once you know Him, all things become possible, because you know He who can answer all prayers, and you trust Him to do that which is Good, because He is all Goodness.  Then, your prayer truly becomes most powerful, as it was with the Centurion, who having Jesus in front of him, sensed by meeting Him that He had the Power to intervene.  He knew Him face to face.  And he knew there was something extraordinary about Him that meant all he had to do was ask, in faith.

And he was not wrong.  This is proved by Scripture in Matthew 8:5-13 where it tells us that the Centurion’s servant was instantly healed.  This power of intercession did not end with the times of the Bible.  This very power of intercession still exists and is accessible by us today through the same faith.  We have but to exercise it, and trust.

This is an apostleship I have personally taken very seriously now for 17 years, since my call to be an intercessor, under the Apostolate of Holy Motherhood.  I simply believed, picked up my rosary and started praying.  And wow, how things began to change!  My beautiful, glorious Lord revealed Himself to me most mightily after that, as anyone who has followed this blog knows.  However, the results of my prayers will only be known in eternity, though I am sure they are known now to the God I have followed since that day.  And though I don’t often know the who, what, where and when of my intercessory effort, I trust God to put it to the greatest Good.  In His Omniscience, He knows far greater than I where to apply the graces I pray for.  Such was the case in a powerful dream experience of my Beloved Jesus in 2008.  What it fully means and what it prevented or postponed, I will only know in eternity:

September 8, 2008

Dreamt I came upon a large, large room, like an auditorium in a building, where many were gathered sitting at tables.  A friend of mine remarked that she had met a wonderful teacher there – Jesus.

I went immediately to where she pointed, for I longed to see Him so desperately as I love Him SO!!!

I saw Him from a distance sitting among people at the tables.  I believe they were Christians.  I expressed something to my friend about how – “Isn’t He the most beautiful thing!!!  How can you even bear to see Him and be around Him so lackadaisically/casually?!”  My ardour was such that I could not bear seeing Him and yet ached to see Him!

He saw that I had seen Him thus and knew that I was approaching the area where He sat.  He got up before I came near and went out the furthest door from me, which was near the front of the auditorium by the stage.  He was dressed in a simple white robe.  As I knew He was going out this door and exiting the building, I exited the door nearest to me to catch Him outside as He exited His door.  I called out to him, “Teacher!”.  As I came outside, however, I saw that He had disappeared the moment He exited!  I knew He was purposely keeping Himself hidden from me and I fell away into a street from this courtyard area just outside the right side of this building and I stumbled away  in gasping, soul-wrenching sobs that wracked me to my core.  I could not even breathe.  I cried and gasped and pounded stone & brick walls as I flung myself into an alley where no-one could see my flagellation and gut-wrenching moans and sobs of inescapable agony at not being able to see and be with my Beloved.  The pain was excruciating!!!  I have never cried or sobbed or gasped for any reason in my life such as I have this night for love and longing of my Holy Jesus!  It is because I love Him to such a degree that my pain is so great.

As I stumbled down this alley, I came to an alcove and spent myself in gasping, agonizing sobs at Him hiding Himself from me.  As I was able to breathe again I realized I had no choice.  I had to accept this and walk back out on the street where the people were.  My friend had just stood by watching me as I cried so – very surprised at how violent my love reaction to Jesus was.

I walked back up to the area I had come from and was aghast to see that a crucifixion was being prepared.  It was for a fat lady who sat at a long table eating and drinking and joking about the fact that she was going to be crucified.  She was so hard of heart that she was even joking that her family wouldn’t have to pay for her burial costs, etc.  I was aghast!!!  The woman was so hard of heart, flippant and in denial – right up to this last supper before her crucifixion!

I turned to my left and saw Jesus sitting at a long table facing her as Judge.  Onlookers stood all about watching this scene, almost in entertainment and doing nothing to intervene.  I began to plead the woman’s case.  I was begging and pleading with such ardour and fear for the woman that I completely forgot my own longing as I addressed Jesus – only completely aghast and concerned for what was unfolding before me.  I pleaded desperately with Him to have mercy and distinctly remember saying (roughly):

JESUS!!!  It is to such as these that the state/depth/fate of hell belongs, as their heart is so hardened that they cannot even soften their hearts facing their own crucifixion!”

I begged with Him because of this, so that the woman might have a chance, and not go to hell.  I stood between Jesus and the woman and pleaded her case as a desperate intervention.  Then I pleaded again for a different reason.  I saw before me or was shown two pictures of Christmas food – Christmas celebration scenes of Christmas food.  I again spoke to Him saying:

How can her children celebrate Christmas if she is crucified?”

There were many onlookers around this awning-covered patio/courtyard area at the front of the Christian filled building Jesus, as Teacher, had sat in at the beginning of the dream.  This Judgement scene was taking place right outside the front of this building, just around the corner from the door He had exited at the right side near the front of the building.  The onlookers were not under the awning, but in the street and all watched the proceedings, thinking to themselves, “What difference is this girl going to make in changing His mind?!!”  They had seen my love for Christ and my ardour, but had not understood it.

As I stood before Jesus now, seriously pleading for the woman’s life with all the passion that the love pain had shown, they were shocked at the very great power that I had before the Lord.  As we all waited a moment in expectant silence for Jesus to speak, He, facing the woman, said:

The sentence is dismissed.”

I was filled with such great relief, but knew the story was not over.  The woman had been spared this crucifixion/punishment, but needed to change her hardness of heart and take seriously the urgency of the time and the great pardon that had been granted her.  I vowed and was somehow granted to use the time to help the woman see and change her hardness of heart before it was time for her death.  The onlookers were absolutely shocked I had such intercessory power before Jesus.

I woke up with a start in a state I cannot convey…tears of joy, relief, gratitude, passion, longing, renewal, redoubling of intensity and effort all intermingled into one ball of disbelief and hope…

I lay down on my floor in an exhausted heap with a picture of my Jesus with His Sacred Heart exposed at my head and re-consecrated myself to Himself and Mary, and vowed that I would spend every last fibre of my life in His service and in service to the woman…

I leave it to others to interpret and discern who the ‘woman’ is in this Jesus experience, though I could speculate that she stands for the hard of heart in the church and in the world who do not take the spiritual journey seriously…

However, the importance I wish to stress with this sharing, is that it is a wonderful, serious responsibility to stand in the gap for others as an intercessor, and when prayers are answered it can be a wonderful feeling to think our faith in God helped make a difference.  The more difficult thing is to accept and understand when seemingly our prayers are not answered.  This too, though, requires trust – trust that God knows far better than we what circumstances are best allowed with His Permitting Will in order to save souls.  With God, it is always about what is best for our soul and ultimately the salvation of that soul so that it can join Him in Heaven.

This is where seeking God and getting to know Him more deeply, and following Him and His Commandments more closely is so important.  When you align yourself with all Goodness and build a relationship with Him through prayer and the practices of our faith, you come to know Him more fully and with that knowing, comes trust.  This trust is faith.  And that faith, once deepened, can become a faith that can move mountains – whether you see the results or not.  I have seen this firsthand and share another spiritual experience that showed how very important it is that each of us work seriously to deepen our relationship with God; That we seek to follow His commandments and become deep and solid in our faith so that we can access the Power of God – His Holy Spirit – in an ever more powerful way.

We are in a time in history where perhaps it has never been more important to turn thus towards God, and, once turned, to help your fellow man do the same.  This creates a domino effect of God’s power working in the world.  Through you.  Through me – a literal string of dominoes setting off waves of change in our world – for Good!  But we must deepen our faith to increase our intercessory power – especially for times here and times coming:

Sunday, August 11, 2013 @ my Campsite

Dreamt I saw a woman in a room who was possessed to some degree.  I knew a priest was in the room and he was preparing to do exorcism rites.

There were several Catholic faithful in the room as prayer intercessors.  I saw they were there to pray to help in the rite of exorcism.  However, I then saw that there was a stream of people coming who were all possessed to one degree or another.

I knew the exorcism rite was being started by the priest, but I didn’t see him doing it or the nature of the prayer.  The extreme focus of the dream was my ‘inside’ view of the power/Spirit emanating from the faithfuls’ hands as they prayed.  It was so weak!  I saw very little power or strength of prayer rising from their upturned hands!  It was so remarkably weak as their faith was correspondingly weak, so as to almost be completely ineffective.

I was then called or brought forward to do this kind of prayer as it was becoming very urgently needed and as I lifted my hands to pray, I saw very, very, very great power and Spirit rise from my hands, and it was this level of prayer needed and able to free those possessed.  Satan was very unhappy with my being brought forward (as my writings on this site have shown!), and a great deluge of attack was directed at me by him and demons, as I started to do this, but I was specifically sought and needed for this work as the prayer and faith of some of the other Catholic faithful was SO very weak!!!

I was quite surprised at this.  I did not see anything personal about the priest’s prayer life in this dream, but knew it was a priest performing exorcisms, and that I was desperately needed for this (kind of intercessory prayer).

Personally, a later dream from March of 2015 confirmed my call from God for this heavier kind of prayer, or deliverance work, and opportunities have come my way coincidentally to act as an intercessor in this deeper way.  This website, my prayer life, my women’s group – Sister†Hood, the documentaries I have started filming (watch for our next being released December 7, 2017:  “Messages from Heaven:  The Face of Satan and the Reality of Hell” – which will also focus on the dangers of the Occult), prayer requests and many other hidden actions are the many ways I am being called to stand in the gap for others.

While it is true that not all are called to be heavy prayer warriors or intercessors in deliverance, all intercessory prayer for our brothers and sisters is of vital importance for the salvation of souls and the shaping of our world for the better.  Only the most spiritually blind would deny the swirling storm clouds of evil and chaos seen in almost every region of the world.  Only the united effort of those willing to make a difference on the side of good, through conversion, action, faith, service, our mass offerings, sacrifices and prayers will help in overcoming this storm surge.  Join hands with your Christian brothers and sisters and commit to serving God and the world in being the intercession that you wish to see.  There is no other way.  May God bless your efforts – and your faith!



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In my many meetings with my Spiritual Director I often share the sense of ‘walking in the dark’ with a lamp lighting the next few steps in this journey of witness for God.

Though I have experienced some of the most amazing, beautiful things of the spirit realm over the years, I still have been left with the pondering that Mary must have felt when the Angel brought her the news of the Annunciation. “What does it all mean?”

I have been trying to follow diligently in the spirit of Mary – accepting all that God has imparted, but despite it all – and my certainty of the truth of God and life after death, I’m still left pondering as Mary did what the full picture was – why is this happening to me and where is it all going?

My Director has answered this query by stating that he thinks despite the overwhelming number of spiritual experiences that I have been graced with over the past 17 years, they are but the preamble to the real work.  What that will look like only posterity will show.  When he says this I am always a little amazed.  My theological dream binder has over 300 typed pages of supernatural & divine dreams, words & experiences.  I often wonder if it is the ‘show’ and that when I am finished disseminating “that which I have received” my work will be done – but he doesn’t think so…

I guess I ponder this as well because God has been much quieter the past year or so – for me at least.  This feeling of not being able to guess at God’s work or plan – or set the pace for it either – is depicted eerily in the next dream I will share today – one where God showed me an overall schematic of His plan through me – and that so far it is indeed only a ‘first pass’ and that much is still to be filled in and downloaded – but that I cannot control the pace of it at all:

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Sunday, April 27, 2008

I had a dream where I was with some people at a house.  I saw one tincture bottle of homeopathic medicine.  I knew it was the same as the one the doctor gave me.  I put the dosage of drops on my tongue.  I was then lead to something by a woman.  Then I saw a large page/wall/tablet with an outline of written characters n it – written by/from God.  The characters and symbols were unlike any letters that I know, with curling sweeps and flourishes, but I knew they were letters/a message and that they were God’s words.

The whole wall/tablet was full of a ‘first pass’ or outline of the message (like when an old fashioned printer goes back and forth over each line, initially delivering only the first pass to each letter, and then with each subsequent stroke the rest of each letter is filled in with more ink to produce the whole, fully legible line of characters/words).

I went up to the wall/outline and with power in my right index finger I would point to a line and the direction of printing and some delivered power (an angel figured here somehow) would come and each line of the lengthy message would be filled in.  I could not control the speed of delivery though.  Even though I pointed my finger at each line with fervour and power, the stream of God’s writing came at a pre-determined pace, filling in the unusual looking characters/words as it went – delivering the fullness of the lines.  Some words/characters were SO full and elaborate that the filling in/shading of these words would require a pause – while the full message was being ‘downloaded’.

I started to speak publicly of this message from God, like an innocent, straight-forward child.  I suffered almost instant labelling as a ‘wacko’, but it did not deter me in the slightest, as my mind, my heart, my soul, my eyes and my tongue were only focused on my God and His Will.

I awoke and promised the Father again that none of it matters (ridicule, what people will say, etc) and that I care only about doing His work.

How true this is as here I am – despite what others might think or say about me.  If everything I have been experiencing and sharing turns out to be a ‘first pass’, well then I have to say that even this first pass is pretty compelling.  The overall message of all my dreams, experiences and words can be summed up tidily with the message:


These words above are my words, but they are a succinct synopsis of all that God has been saying through me for the past 17 years.  And I sense very much that the warnings are becoming more urgent, much like they did for King Belshazzar in Daniel 5.

More clarification regarding the above dream came my way days later:

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May 6, 2008

Dreamt I was standing in the hallway of a house and suddenly labour pains came over me.  I was not pregnant, but I was somehow psychically attuned to feeling the labour pains of another (I was sharing in the labour pains).  I knew a certain period was starting. I opened the door to see and entered the street.

I was then sent to walk down the streets.  I had a long staff/rod in my left hand and it and my hand were raised up by the power of another – not my own.  I could not lower my arm – it was held up for me by the power of another.

There was a long cut timber log which was levitated in the air behind me on the street – at about the same height as the top of the staff.  It followed me as I started to march down the main street as a manifest sign of the supernatural origin of the power that held up my arm and propelled me into the streets.  The vertical end of the log faced my back and it lay horizontally in the air.

People were on the sides of the street and started to turn in shock, wonder & amazement at this obviously supernatural event as I was walking.  The log followed me in the air.  It was a supernatural, visible manifestation/sign that accompanied me on the walk.  As I started to walk and people began to gape in awe, fear, confusion and wonder, someone jumped from the sidewalk into the street and aggressively tried to knock down the log from the air.  It fell back and down off its course/trajectory for a moment and then righted itself and went back to the exact same position with unseen supernatural power.  I think my arm may have been lowered as this happened, but it was raised again as the log returned.  The person who had struck it fell away in fear.  Then I continued to walk forward as before.

As I did the most powerful and profound outpouring of the Almighty God entered me and lay me back in the air as in prior dreams (but not to this degree!!!) and two words came out of me very loudly and boldly:


And then I waited, poised to listen for God’s words.  Ideas came into my head as to what words would come but I wrote nothing as I knew the difference between the ideas and words of my own head and the sound of God’s voice speaking, and I would write nothing that was of me.

I was filled to the brim in the most overflowing, powerful and complete way to date with the spirit of God and I lay back in the air levitated thus; tingling, prickling, vibrating with the fullness of Power, listening and ready to write and speak.

It wasn’t much longer until I received words to pass along:

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June 12, 2008

I remembered a short dream that I had mid-night.  I woke briefly and fell back asleep but did not get up to record it.  In the morning I remembered it hazily, but the words pretty much exactly, and wondered if I should record it so much later because it had God’s words in it.  My priest directors felt I should and I like to err on the side of caution so:

I dreamt I was starting to tell people what God was doing with/through me and explained how I am being used as a ‘channel/prophet’.

Then as I spoke this, God’s spirit came over me, in me and levitated me again in the dream and one sentence was spoken quite urgently though me from God:


I don’t know if I, or rather, He, could state it any more plainly.


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It has been quite a few years now since I have started sharing the divine inspirations and words I have received.  I have taken this journey quite seriously and have wished in earnest for all those with ears to hear to take my words seriously.  If I could but download the spiritual experiences I have received to you so that you could experience them as I have experienced them(!)…but the best I can do is re-live them here with the odd illustration in the hopes that you will see and hear what I have seen and heard.

It has been 17 years since I personally began this profound spiritual journey and I feel so blessed to be sitting in the place I am, knowing that the things of the Bible are real…what peace…what consolation.  As the world around us gets busier, ruder, crueler, scarier and just downright deadly, it gives me great consolation to know so very well that this life is not the end of the story.

But with all the work I have done sharing profound truthful things here, in my documentary and the one to come, in my women’s group – Sister†Hood, and most especially in the deep, prolonged prayer life of pleading with The Father for EVERYONE!!!, I still feel like I haven’t done near enough to help people wake up and look at the spiritual life;  Hence my title today – IS ANYONE LISTENING?!!!

Many of the words I read at various sites around the world where others are receiving divine inspirations, echo with a resonance of the warnings I have also personally received.  WE MUST CHANGE – AND NOW!!!

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I know it isn’t popular to be a voice in the wilderness that says “it is not okay to just live and let live…and for each to do whatever they think is right“.  SIN is a very real, serious word…and almost no-one is taking it seriously.  The Ten Commandments aren’t just the title of a fantastic 1956 Cecil B. De Mille movie starring Charleton Heston.  They are a law which God gave us to help us live fantastic lives!

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The Ten Commandments

In summation, their law is the Law of Love.  And not just love of self…but love of self and neighbour, which amounts to perfection for oneself and beauty for one’s neighbour.  Think about it.  How do various people make you feel in your day to day lives?  Don’t you feel the best around the ones who treat you with respect, kindness, consideration, care, patience, and love?  Are you also finding that this kind of person is harder and harder to find out there?

Well, I have one piece of advice for that.  Start by BEING one – no matter what they do around you.  It is the right thing to do and oftentimes the only thing that helps your neighbour to start to be a better person.  So many people are broken, bitter, hard, lonely, unkind and jaded.  Their frozen hearts are in need of melting. So let me segue here and state that I made the icon of my women’s group a Domino for a reason.  The reason is that we are in great need of warm, loving hearts willing to touch other hearts.  We need chain reactions – Domino chain reactions.  The only way to do that is to become a Domino yourself.  BE the agent of change you wish to see in the world.  Pray for the strength for yourself and others to do this in this very difficult, darkening world.  This is the KEY to change. Wishing for it while you continue to act the way others sometimes treat you will do nothing…except add to the mess.

Lately there have been quite a few messages from God the Father Himself on a website I follow and believe to be authentic, though each has to discern for himself.  As He has been saying to and through me, our God is saying similar things through the messenger at http://www.holylove.org, with a recent post as follows:

Once again, I see a Great Flame that I (Maureen) have come to know as the Heart of God the Father. He says: “I am the Lord God, Creator of all things great and small. It is I Who created the earth and its atmosphere. It is I Who call the clouds to pass before the sun. It is I Who create every insect under the earth – every fish that swims in the sea. For the sake of My Love for all of My Creation – especially mankind – I come here* today to speak once again.”

“I have given you Commandments to live, by My Children. I have encapsulated all of the Commandments in one easy concept – Holy Love. Most of you fail to listen. The greatest error in the world today is that man does not recognize or care about what is good and what is evil. This attitude negates sin in all its forms and creates a false conscience – an apt description of the heart of the world. Yet when I come, or send My Son or His Holy Mother to speak, few there are who will listen. Then there are those who think they are living in My Divine Will but have made gods of their own will and their own opinions. These are the ones most difficult to convert. Their sanctimony is their undoing.”

“With a sincere heart return to Me, O Man of Earth. Allow Me to be your Sovereign. I desire your welfare – your salvation. Obey My Commandments. I am slow to anger – rich in Mercy. My Justice must come, however.” July 18, 2017 – God the Father to messenger Maureen Sweeney-Kyle at the Ecumenical Shrine and Ministry of Holy Love at Maranatha Spring & Shrine in Ohio/www.holylove.org

I have my own warning to share from a dream I received on April 21, 2008 (with a dream of its interpretation a year later in April, 2009).  I offer it in hopes that it will inspire YOU to listen, harken, change, and become the DOMINO of great change in the world around you, so that together we might make this WORLD the beautiful place it is intended to be, while we each work to make ourselves the most beautiful SELF we were meant to be – not just for our lives here, but for the eternity that we will each spend upon our deaths.

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April 21, 2008

Dreamt I saw a beautiful man I had seen in my class before many times in school I had been at and I was highly attracted to him.  He began to show his love for me and brought me to a scene to show me something.

I was shown an area/field that had maze-like tall grasses or corn stalks (I think the latter).  A man (Father) said to me that he could no longer allow time to search for poor, helpless Piglet anymore, as it was time to bring forward the buffalo (from of old), so that the lion would not starve – have something to feed on.

Of course the little piglet lost in the corn would be trampled.  I then saw Piglet’s little head as he wandered about confused – trying to find his way out of these tall corn rows.  I started earnestly beckoning to the lost one to get him to come out of the corn maze quickly!!!  As I knew the stampede/danger/trampling/devouring time was coming.  He could hear my voice and started to head to the edge for safety.

Then the man/Father gave some command and I saw the buffalo come stampeding first.  First there was one, then two, then a herd, and they began to tear off from this ‘of old’ place where they’d been kept/held and they started to charge wildly – chaotic directions – beginning to trample the corn field.

I was on a high wood wall/fence that was at the edge of the field – opposite direction from whence the stampede was let forth.  I saw a character named Chase (whose name means ‘exceptionally skilled huntsman’) hidden in the tree/bush next to the fence and encouraged him to climb on the fence and then follow me – as I now saw the release of the bears after the buffalo had stampeded through and the bears would destroy hungrily.

I saw the first bear and it was large and powerful – in fact I only saw one bear and it sought to catch and tear apart and consume anyone it could find in the corn and also on the fence.

I saw a tall pole at the long end of this fence.  It was white, but had no flag at the top.  I think it may have had a pointed top.  I saw a young girl trying to shimmy up the pole to heights for safety to escape the bear.

I leapt onto the pole and started to shimmy up and told her to take my hand and then I would/started to pull her up with me to a safe height to escape the bear. She was a young girl who appeared six (the number of man).  All the while I was issuing commands for my family and others to follow me and I was going to help pull them up too, as this tall white pole was the ONLY place of height/safety to escape the devouring bear.

Not only was it an urgent flee, but the quick climb of the pole would require strength to climb and endurance to stay there – holding fast while the bear devoured all around.

I woke and was reflecting on this dream and then may have fallen back asleep for I had a flash image of Mary, Mother of God appearing over this cornfield, and she hovered there as if on a cloud pedestal.

I dreamt an interpretation of the aforementioned dream a year later, in Easter Week, April, 2009 and recorded it April 17, 2009:

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I dreamt an interpretation of the dream from April 21, 2008 from the ‘bear scene’ onwards.  It was this:

The bear was Russia.  Piglet was the lost souls – wandering in corn – unable to even see the way out – that is why Mary appeared hovering over the field – they could look up and see her.  She was there to coax them out of their lost state.

The fence represented the climb to true safety which was the white pole.  It was shown this white pole was the church and made known that it bore no flag at the top as a normal flagpole would have as it was for no one nation, but for all – universal.

The only place of safety with the devouring attack of the bear (Russia) was going to be this flagpole and souls could not afford to stay ‘on the fence’ anymore.  They must cling to the pole/church – even though this will be difficult, and there will not be much rest in doing so.

I have only one question for you:





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Part of the reason I have found it difficult to find the time to write on this little blog for God lately, is due to the investment of time filming my first documentary in service to the call to witness to our Christian faith.

In my last writing, I shared this initial documentary in segments.  It was also screened in Ottawa on December 8, 2016 and was well received to a larger audience than I had expected.  This tells me people are thirsting to hear of the things of God to help them in their daily walk of faith – through times that seem to be extra hard and dry for many lately…myself included.

To that end, Charlie (my young, talented reporter friend) & I have started filming our next documentary and have decided to launch a Youtube show to share it in short manageable segments, with another screening in Ottawa when it is finished. Our new show is called Cross†Talk, and we have decided to focus on ‘the dark side‘ for the initial series, “The Demonic Interviews”.  This series, which will be amalgamated into our second documentary, will be an expose of sorts on Satan, demons and the occult.  It will include not only the many dream experiences of Satan and demons that God has allowed me to experience, but also my experience of Hell, and the witness of several other Christians.

According to the Catechism of the Catholic church, we are all called to witness to our Christian faith with our lives, as a natural outcome of our Christian Baptism:

The baptized have become “living stones” to be “built into a spiritual house, to be a holy priesthood.”74 By Baptism they share in the priesthood of Christ, in his prophetic and royal mission. They are “a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God’s own people, that [they] may declare the wonderful deeds of him who called [them] out of darkness into his marvelous light.”75 Baptism gives a share in the common priesthood of all believers. 1268


For me this was very strikingly confirmed by a supernatural experience at mass February 1, 2008 where I saw Jesus’ right arm came out from the Host during Eucharistic Adoration and felt it rest on my head.  Then I heard him speak to me a brief shout command:

GO!!!  Preach unto the nations!”

It was a powerful confirmation of my call to ministry which has been exercised in a more direct way these past eight years or so.  This call is no different today than it was in the times of the first disciples.  Witness the example of St. Paul:

Paul, a servant of Jesus Christ, called to be an apostle, set apart for the gospel of God, which he promised beforehand through his prophets in the holy scriptures, the gospel concerning his Son, who was descended from David according to the flesh and was declared to be Son of God with power according to the spirit of holiness by resurrection from the dead, Jesus Christ our Lord, through whom we have received grace and apostleship to bring about the obedience of faith among all the Gentiles for the sake of his name, including yourselves who are called to belong to Jesus Christ.” Holy Bible, NRSV

Occasionally I’ve experienced spiritual dream experiences of some of these great witnesses to the truths of our faith and will share them here today for your discernment.  They in their own times and own ways served as heroic witnesses to their deep relationship with the hidden God and His Son, Jesus Christ.  Almost everyone knows of the witness of Mother Teresa in our own time, who was canonized St. Teresa of Calcutta in 2016; or the long history of witness of Sister Lucia of Fatima, whose cause for beatification just passed the first stage this past week (while her co-visionaries at Fatima, Francisco & Jacinta Marto, were beatified by St. John Paul II on a Fatima anniversary, May 13, 2000).  In his role as head of the Catholic Church,  Pope John Paul II witnessed with his life, service and office to the truths of the Gospel of Jesus Christ.  Then there is this little witness by a Catholic wife and mother…and the testimony of countless others who are using new and varied methods to preach the Gospel of Jesus Christ.

How desperately the world needs those willing to carry on the call to witness to the truth of our faith.  Pope Francis indeed is calling all the faithful to use every method to fulfill their call to evangelization;  a call to literally go out into the streets and minister to the people where they are.  This is a call Mother Teresa fulfilled by serving the poor in the streets of Calcutta, and this simple burning desire to serve others and Jesus resulted in her sainthood. And what else is the essence of sainthood but the practice of love – putting one step in front of the other in service to the needs of those around you?  The truth is that we are all called to sainthood – and all called to witness.  So…with over 7.5 billion people on the planet, the world could really use your sainthood…and your witness.

Yet many feel that recent years feel more like the scourging at the pillar than sainthood.  But it is precisely this stripping and scourging that peels away the layers of sin and worldly attachment and leads to the beautiful core of love in a uniquely crafted human persona known as you.  Holiness.  Sainthood.  Witness. A recent re-post by Janet Klasson of the Pelianito Journal Blog that came at the same time as this writing illustrates my point:

My beloved, do not imagine that the journey of my faithful ones is so different from the journey of their Lord. On the contrary, I AM the way and all paths lead through the cross. Remember, my children, that each cross is tailored to the soul. Each is unique, as unique as the soul that bears it. The only similarity in all crosses is that I am with you all in your passion. You need only turn to me and all the strength I had in my passion will be made available to you. This is especially true when one is being persecuted for my sake. Would I abandon that poor soul? Would not the Father see me when he looks at him? When I say that your reward will be great in heaven, do not imagine that I am being trite. Those who suffer on my behalf will be eternally grateful for what that suffering has purchased for them. Indeed, it will seem a far greater reward than the soul feels he deserved for it. In comparison, the trial will seem a small thing—even a large trial. My children, you cannot possibly imagine with what magnanimity your infinitely generous God can act. Be therefore consoled. All that happens in this life is as a passing shadow, over in the blink of an eye. Endure all with faith, fortitude, and great trust. I am with you through it all. Shalom.” Jesus to the messenger, Janet in alleged message from https://pelianitoblog.wordpress.com/

So to aid you in your continued climb and call to holiness, sainthood & witness I share the following:

March 4, 2008

I experienced a very brief dream of St. Paul with words spoken as I rose from sleep:

The world tests you so that your strength might be revealed in Christ Jesus.”

For me this helped illuminate the scourging and stripping…for the purposes of being a fantastic witness for our God, while attaining the goal for ourselves at the same time – sainthood, holiness and the wholeness that we were originally created for as God’s creation in His image…the image of love.  I am sure there are many images of love who have faithfully walked with faith and witness and thereby illuminated their little corner of the world with the light of heaven, yet remained hidden and unknown to most of the world – even in posterity.  And yet, occasionally, God makes some of them into bigger lampstands, so that His work, His love and their witness might be of broader reach.  Such is the case with Sister Lucia of Fatima, whose life is getting more attention now than ever since her death on February 13, 2005 – especially in this the 100th anniversary of the apparitions of Fatima.

I can’t say I fully understood the following dream of Sister Lucia from 2008 at the time, but lately I feel like it is starting to make a lot more sense…and perhaps will more so as time goes on.  I leave this to the discernment of the reader:

Saturday, March 15, 2008

I had a long drawn out dream that started with a chase scene.  I was helping children escape from evil forces who sought to catch and kill them. I was helping people flee, procuring hiding spots etc.  Then I came upon a large room set up for students with circular tables set up in a large circle around the edges of the room.  There were math games/questions to test/occupy students while something was being set up – like an exposition.  I was asked a question at the second table – to describe the property of something.

Then I was in a different location.  It seemed an outdoor alcove on a street or something and no-one was around me at all.  I was secluded in a recessed corner of a building on the quiet end  of a street.  I had been given a tape recording and an orange duotang or folder of Sister Lucia (Fatima visionary) speaking.  Reference was made to the fact that the world did not really have at this time a great religious ‘beacon’ like Mother Teresa, etc. to look up to.

Then I saw like a vignette moving picture of Sister Lucia speaking on a page and she said it was time/part of her mission for her words to be spread in talks to the world – something about her speaking to the world.  She and her words were to start moving through the world.  I saw the light of her candle flicker.  It suggested the start of movement of her candle as this announcing/talking of hers was to go throughout the world – from place to place.

Indeed her life, mission and witness go forth in bigger waves of light as time goes on from the lampstand God continues to make of Sister Lucia.  We are each called to be light in this world of darkness by our witness and our committed lives as Christians.  This means staying the course on the uphill climb and trusting God completely along the way.  In His Mercy He prunes, refines and strengthens us for His purposes and our good.  If we allow Him, then He can truly use us to shine the light on the path to aid our fellow men – by literally making us into beacons of light that shine in a world steeped in darkness.

May this little beloved song from my childhood be for you a simple reminder of this call, which in the end is peace, beauty and harmony with our Creator, as we shine with His Light:

Jesus bids us shine with a clear, pure light,
Like a little candle burning in the night;
In this world of darkness, we must shine,
You in your small corner, and I in mine.
Jesus bids us shine, first of all for Him;
Well He sees and knows it if our light is dim;
He looks down from heaven, sees us shine,
You in your small corner, and I in mine.
Jesus bids us shine, then, for all around
Many kinds of darkness in this world abound:
Sin, and want, and sorrow—we must shine,
You in your small corner, and I in mine.
Jesus bids us shine, as we work for Him,
Bringing those that wander from the paths of sin;
He will ever help us, if we shine,
You in your small corner, and I in mine



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There is a new Country song out lately that resonates with me due to the underlying spiritual issue it depicts – that of the overwhelming noise we in the modern world are surrounded by daily.

In Kenny Chesney’s song, “Noise” is a fundamental lesson and truth.  We very rarely experience silence anymore. Yet the soul that thirsts and hungers for God, and wholeheartedly follows the path of spiritual perfection and growth in holiness, automatically seeks out more silence and less noise.  In fact, to those who know them, these souls also become an oasis of silence and peace of spirit that can be tangibly sensed.  They seem to have less interior ‘noise’ and can bring that peace and silence to every interaction.  I have heard that God dwells and speaks quietly in that place of silence.  One goal of the spiritual life is to cultivate that interior and exterior place of silence to invite God in, and create the space and open demeanour to listen to His small, still quiet voice…which sometimes echoes like thunder when we create the space in our hearts to listen…

I have experienced both in my spiritual journey – words of quiet perfect form as I rose from sleep, which summed up succinctly a dream experience of our God, but also the loud and clear immense, powerful, booming Voice of Talking Thunder of God the Father, as when He spoke to me many years ago saying,


I have said before on this website that I shall never forget that experience, or how each of His words boomed like talking thunder.  Each word was like the footstep of a Giant on the earth!  When God speaks – be it whisper or shout – one listens!  I took to heart the ‘shout’ command I received at church many years ago as well – this time from Jesus:

preach unto the nations


So for 16 years now I haven’t just been listening; I have been dutifully recording and slowly sharing that which I have seen and heard. Moreover, I have all the while been responding in the reciprocal relationship of love that then flourishes with our God, who is Love.

So many people wonder at my faith, but either don’t investigate for themselves the possibility that the spiritual truths of the Bible are real, or don’t care to find out – that is until some life experience gently, or sometimes brusquely, pushes them into the Quest.  I think part of the reason it takes people that wake-up-call moment, is that we are surrounded by far too much noise and distraction.  So many things and voices clamour for our constant attention…and so many of them are so less worthy of our time than the time that would be well spent in seeking God.

Don’t get me wrong.  I know the demands of daily life all too well!  As a mom of six kids, two dogs & two cats, who works outside the home (in a school full of noisy children(!)), runs a part time business and a women’s spiritual support group, while keeping up the demands of home, marriage & friendships, I too am surrounded by busyness and noise.  However, I crave and carve out silence.  It is those moments apart – in prayer, reflection and retreat that give me the serenity, peace and strength to do all I do (and it also helps to get regular rest & exercise to care for the tent that houses our soul!).


The key to the Quest is in seeking the Pearl of Great Price.  Matthew 13:45-46 speaks of this parable of Jesus:

Again, the kingdom of heaven is like a merchant looking for fine pearls. 46 When he found one of great value, he went away and sold everything he had and bought it.” (NIV)

The value of closing off as much as possible the noise of your life to embark on the Quest for this Pearl is illustrated in several dreams God saw fit to send me in March of 2008:

March 12, 2008 – Three dreams

First I dreamt that I walked down the basement stairs of my home in Heart’s Desire.  As I approached the bottom landing I was picked up and carried by a woman to an unfinished portion of the basement where a circle of people were meeting.  As I was being carried to this circle, I was held with such love and was repeatedly given sweet and tender kisses all over my face.  I wondered what the meeting was about and why I was being brought to it.  When I awoke I pondered this dream and the fact that it was the ‘unfinished’ portion of the basement that I was brought to.

Then I fell back asleep and dreamed a second dream:


I dreamt that I was then in the finished portion of the basement.  I stood talking to many people from my circle of life.  They seemed standing in a line for something.  I spoke to those who would listen in this line about the spiritual life and the necessity to seek the things of God.  I told them to seek and they would find.  I told them if they truly desired peace they would find it.  I asked, though, if they truly sought it in truth:

Do you truly seek it?  Then you will have it.”

I saw Dara (a character in the dream whose name means ‘pearl’) in particular listening to me as well as others – men included.



These two dreams had followed a previous one from March 7, 2008 where just one silent word rose to consciousness as I emerged from sleep that night.  It was “Shekinah, Shechinah, or Schechinah (Hebrew: שְׁכִינָה‎‎).  which, according to Wikipedia, is the English transliteration of a Hebrew noun meaning dwelling or settling, and denotes the dwelling or settling of the divine presence of God and his cosmic glory.  

I had pondered “Shekinah” as I did not know what it meant.  I was still pondering it in the middle of the night after the above two dreams on March 12th.  In my journal I had then recorded the following:

I lay awake after the first two dreams (of three) I have recorded of earlier this morning, pondering God, pondering Shekinah – hungering with every fibre of my spirit, mind and body for Divine indwelling.  Then, a still, small voice said:

Dispose yourself to receive the High and Mighty Lord.”

I immediately responded:

I am so disposed.”

I began to pray with even greater fervour for the Father to possess me completely with His Divine Love.  Then the voice said again:

Exposing yourself to this mass will require that you in turn expose yourself” (I sensed this meant to others) (and surprise…here I am doing just that on this website)…

I acquiesced (agreed).  I prayed, and offered myself to the Father in a prayer too intimate to repeat to othersbut essentially I prayed:

No human heart is disposed to receive my heart as completely as You.  Together we shall create love for all eternity.”

As I prayed to God our Father, He very gently and slowly infused me with His attributes:  patience, kindness, love, tenderness, gentleness, mercy, compassion, purity, wisdom, love and His holiness.  I just but said yes!  And so I ponder still the meaning of Shekinah…perhaps others can shed light as to the full meaning of this experience.

However, it didn’t end there.  I was given to understand this:

There are no walls in the Heart of God that prevent Him from giving Himself to us, only the walls in the hearts of humans that make them unable to fully possess the living God.  Amidst such a tender experience as I have detailed above, I was saddened at the inability of human hearts to be disposed to receive the Father (who is LOVE) completely because of the walls that are put up against Him.  They shut themselves out of the deepest recesses of love…

And after I fell back asleep on this very busy spiritual night of March 12, 2008, I dreamed a final third dream:

I dreamt I saw myself and the Father, lying together in the most sweet and tender state of loving embrace, and a voice said:

Thus the soul finds itself, already here on earth, in the loving state it will enjoy for all eternity.”

So I ask you, what are you waiting for?  Start the Quest, and turn off the noise!




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2016 surely hasn’t wasted any time unfolding and showing things of evil.  We have already seen many headlines of bombings and shootings – the latest in a rural Saskatchewan school – and we’re not even out of January.  It breaks my heart to see people with such evil intent seeking to create havoc, devastation and chaos.

What most people don’t realize though, is that there is an underground subterfuge – a malicious evil spiritual truth.  This truth, which most people don’t want to hear or contemplate, is that Satan and demons exist.  They and those they can gather to their cause work incessantly to create notions of evil in the heart that are then borne out in the world.  Witness this purported warning from Mary, from http://www.holylove.org:

January 15, 2016

Mary, Refuge of Holy Love says: “Praise be to Jesus.”

“The greatest threat in the world today is those who do not recognize evil as evil. This lack of discernment enables the enemy and empowers his evil agenda. You see it all around you; in fashions, entertainment, the mainstream media in politics and governments. Most do not think along the lines of what is good and what is evil. Too many are naive as to the difference and indifferent as to the impact of their choices.”

“This is why these Messages* continue – to guide, protect and enlighten. If you do not recognize your enemy, you cannot fight him. Most do not even recognize that they are under attack. I pray constantly for the realization of the Truth in all hearts.”

“Untruth is the enemy and is on the rise. It is far easier to accept untruth, as Satan does not attack such decisions. However, I come to you to help you recognize the Truth in all matters and to give you the courage to choose good over evil.”

“Holy Love is the definition of good. Base all your decisions upon Holy Love. In My Immaculate Heart is every grace you need to make the right choices – the good choices. I am your protection and guide.”

* The Messages of Holy and Divine Love at Maranatha Spring and Shrine.

I think the reason many people don’t even turn their thoughts for a moment to the possibility that Satan and evil malicious spirits truly exist, is fear.  That makes perfect sense to me.  They have reason to be afraid.  I have witnessed (in the dreams God has sent me) repeated experiences of Satan and demons, and let me tell you this: Satan is the most vile, malicious, horrifying, evil being.  He is filled with utter hatred towards humanity.  I have experienced time and again his tirades.  They are filled with ferocious anger, vile filth, smugness, derisiveness, snarling, haughty disdain and outright charging attack directed straight towards me.  He certainly doesn’t appear to be happy at all with the path I have chosen in serving God and making others aware of his existence.

If you are starting to squirm in your seat a little as you read this, because you have not yet decided to choose God, faith, truth and love, then you have good reason to be squirming in your seat.  The truth is, my friend, that Satan already has you trapped, in one way or another.  He didn’t have to come charging at you and reveal himself, as he has done with me, because he has you believing he doesn’t exist.  Through one or another of his fetters and chains (and I have seen those also in the dream state, and they are as many and varied as the persons he wants to snare) he has you distracted, disbelieving, indifferent, unconcerned with your spiritual destiny, or has you outright embroiled in evil.

Don’t get me wrong.  I have great compassion, for I once sat in that state and have to constantly guard against this thing we call sin – acts against love.  The difference is that the light slowly started to dawn for me that love and goodness were just naturally the best way to be, and so I started to turn towards that light.  The second I made that turn, God revealed Himself to me.  You see, as beings with free will, we must choose whom we will serve:  Evil or Good.  God is perfect goodness and love.  In Him is all peace and beauty.  Satan is pure evil.  In him is all evil and untruth.

Here’s the kicker though, and perhaps an impetus to get you out of your squirming seat and the great temptation to hit delete on this blog writing.  God created all things.  God created angels.  The bible tells us that some, with Lucifer at the helm, rebelled against God and refused to love his latest creation – mankind.  This kicker, which Satan does NOT wish you to know, is that he is utterly powerless against those who choose God.  Let us not forget that he, also, was created by God – perfect and beautiful originally, so the Bible says.  However, he is God’s fallen creature now.  What I am getting at is that he didn’t create himself, and he is not God.  He doesn’t have anywhere near the power of God.  THAT is why I don’t fear him – though let me tell you I do wake up in a little trembling sweat after dream experiences of direct attack from him.  I wouldn’t be human if I didn’t.   However, as one who has turned very powerfully to God these past 15 years, God has also shown me, in my spiritual dream experiences, that I am highly protected.  I have seen a spiritual bubble dome that completely surrounds me that Satan is unable to penetrate or come close to (think ‘the cone of silence’ from “Get Smart” – those of you born in the ’60’s will get this reference…).  I have also been shown how the good angels are more powerful and are constantly interceding against the evil spirits – they completely block them from harming us.

I guess what I am trying to convey here today is that it is actually great prudence to start to examine the possibility that truth and untruth – God and Satan – exist.  It is your first step out of Satan’s grasp into safety!  I do not say this lightly, and so I say it again:

The decision to start to examine for yourself if God is really real is your first step towards the safety of God and out of Satan’s grasp.

I never wish to make people afraid with my writings.  But I would be doing a disservice to your soul if I lied to you and said Satan wasn’t real.  Oh my friends, he is so real…and, as an angel created by God, though fallen, has a significant amount of power.  He is something to be feared!!  So please, for a moment, be afraid.  Be afraid that I might just know what I am talking about and hear that I am screaming a warning to your soul:  Come out from evil!


Okay, so perhaps you are listening and wonder what to do next.  Well, my first piece of advice is to get yourself into a good Christian church.  I personally believe the Catholic church has the fullness of the Christian churches – with Jesus present in the Eucharist, priestly blessings (despite their human failings) and the sacraments.  I have experienced too many spiritual things tied to the Catholic church to be able to deny that I feel the most fullness and safety in her arms (having converted from Protestant).  The bottom line I am trying to convey, though, is the truth that Jesus is the Way, the Truth, and the Life.  Anyone who chooses Jesus is automatically in the arms of God, and has Mary as Jesus’ mother (whether they know it or believe it or not).  Jesus is safety.  God is safety.  And I am talking about the God of the Bible.  Not the god of our own understanding. Ground yourself in the bible.

If you can’t find the strength to make the step into a church, then start with a heartfelt prayer in your own words to our God.  Ask Him to help you make the next step.  He will not let you down.

If you need someone to talk to about your unbelief and struggles with faith, drop me a note in the contact form on this website.  I won’t let you down either.

I want to share with you next, one of my most powerful experiences of the spiritual battle and the truth that Jesus is our safety.  I can’t say I still understand it fully, but I have to say that the power of Jesus in it had Satan crushed to the floor – and that is the sum total and essence of everything I have tried to tell you here.  You do not need to be afraid.  You do, however, need to be wise.  Heed my witness and turn.  God will do the rest:

Monday, February 25, 2008 approx 7 a.m.

I had a long dream of being in an evil man’s house and being part of three (the Trinity?) who would help rescue prisoners.  I saw one woman being held captive and smuggled out by one of the evil man’s operatives who was secretly good.  The man wondered how his prisoners were being smuggled out.  I knew but kept silent as he searched the house for who amongst his staff was secretly helping the good side – freeing the prisoners.  I tried to stay hidden as he started to go down the stairs to the main level of the house (we had been on the second floor), but I was now seen.

Some evil men brought in a jar of black liquid that was meant for harm/death.  I found myself holding it in my hands.  The undercover operative placed a small blessed wood crucifix on the lid of it and it began to steam and hiss with the power of God and it dissolved the jar I held and evaporated it – its’ power killed by God’s power.  I believe it was at this point the evil owner found the man who had smuggled the woman out (as it was the one who had placed the cross on the jar) and he began to accuse him of doing this.  The man struggled to defend himself against the evil owner, but was failing in his defence – soon to be caught/found out and killed.  I looked up to heaven and in silent prayer almost screamed beseechingly “FATHER!!!” (like an SOS call).

As I watched this accusation unfold all of a sudden God’s power came on me in the most IMMENSE way yet!  It levitated me in front of many people and I rose in the air on my back and was completely and overwhelmingly filled with God’s power and I began to speak.  God started speaking a long message through me.  I remembered proclaiming many things in this state, but could only remember one sentence verbatim which I will record later in the dream.  There were many people amazed at what was occurring as they watched it with their own eyes.

The evil man brought in Satan and his aides as he saw this happening to me to try to attack me.  Satan came directly to face me.  Wounds opened up on my hands in this state and the “risen” holes blasted forth rays of light.  I think I may have had a crown on my head.  I sensed the presence of Jesus – hard to explain.  I, still levitated, became in an upright position as I squared off directly against Satan thus and God/Jesus spoke through me very powerfully:


I spoke God’s words – God in me blasting words directly at Satan, and the power crushed him to his knees.  He could not withstand it.  The wounds in my hands were evidence for people to see.  My hands burned forth rays after the holes had opened and the rays of power shone out through my hands as I blasted forth God’s messages with IMMENSE power unlike anything I have ever seen or felt before.

I do not remember all the words I spoke verbatim.  There were many messages.  It was a revealing of God’s power in Jesus Christ.  Jesus Christ was referred to/in the person of the messages – hard to explain.  I stayed levitated quite some time and was moved around alternatively to speak words directly against Satan and then witness to the crowds gathering about me in amazement and belief.

I directed them (as I do now…) to go seek God, confession of sin (through the sacraments of the church, or by personal confession in prayer to Jesus) and to cleanse themselves.  They started to file en-masse at my witness and words in this levitated/possessed-by-God’s power state.

They all left this evil man’s house where they had been serving/eating.  THE POWER!!!  The words I spoke from God!!!  I can’t tell you how amazingly powerful – God in me – me docile…There was an immense crushing of Satan and his power as these words were poured forth.

Prophecy was also spoken about.  Something about the time now of a great warrior come.  I saw him run across the pages of a great book I saw to my right in this levitated/God-possessed state – to leap into the scene I was in (into time).  He carried a long straight spear.  This was hands down the most powerful dream of God I have had to date…

I can’t begin to say I understand all of the symbolism of the spiritual dream experiences God has given me.  However, I continue to share them in the hopes that it will lead you to greater awareness that this life is your spiritual battle.  You must choose a side!  Don’t let Satan keep you complacent as you float along merrily in a boat that may lead to hell (see my God given experience of that place here).  Choose instead the Life Preserver that is Jesus. He will bring you aboard the cruise ship that sails straight to Heaven (also known as the Ark).  Please heed my witness that these spiritual truths exist.

I leave you lastly with a little spiritual instruction given by God to Moses to help you Come Out From Evil:


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I want to wish everyone a Happy New Year, and hope you all have a blessed 2016!

As we all journey together into the coming year, this Jubilee Year of Mercy, I continue to share the words, dreams and inspirations I have received over the years.  I was inspired to start this year with a new series of writings, and when I prayed about the title, the words “Stay the Course” are what immediately came to mind.  In essence I think this sums up the Christian walk – learning to trust ever more deeply in the path laid out for us by our loving God, who with All Wisdom, knows much better than we, the perfect path for each of us…a path often strewn with this mysterious thing called suffering.

As already mentioned in a previous writing, I experienced words from St. Paul in a dream several years ago (March 4, 2008) that were:

The world tests you so that your strength might be revealed in Christ Jesus.”

About a month earlier I had experienced the following words as I rose from sleep:

The soul that is inured to suffering will there (in heaven) inure to joy.”

I have to admit I had to look up the meaning of the word “inure”.  I thought perhaps I had heard it wrong, but I always record my dreams and words I receive exactly as I experience them, taking great care to never change a thing with my conscious mind or imagination.  So of course I had to google the word “inure” and honestly thought, well, if it isn’t a word, then I will know that my subconscious just spit a sentence at me as I rose from sleep…but of course it was a word, and I knew then, that the source wasn’t from me…

The word “inure”, according to the online Miriam-Webster dictionary is:

 to cause (someone) to be less affected by something unpleasant

Full Definition of inure

in·ured, in·ur·ing

  1. transitive verb
  2. :  to accustom to accept something undesirable <children inured to violence>

  3. intransitive verb
  4. :  to become of advantage <policies that inure to the benefit of employees>

My next obvious thought after reading the definition, was why we had to be ‘inured’ to suffering?  The mystery of suffering is something greatly debated in Catholic circles and I don’t dare to try explain it myself, except to offer my two cents of my experience of it and the changes it has wrought.  Suffering of course can be highly unpleasant whilst we are in the midst of it.  Who would ask for it?

The Little Engine That Could is an illustrated children’s book that was first published in the United States in 1930 by Platt & Munk. The story is used to teach children the value of optimism and hard work.

Many years ago while undergoing intense suffering myself, I remembered a beloved book of my childhood, and I felt compelled to become acquainted with it again.  It was one of two that I loved (the other being “The Little Engine that Could” – boy how I sometimes feel like that little blue engine…).  The book was “The Velveteen Rabbit”.

The Velveteen Rabbit is a children’s book written by Margery Williams and illustrated by William Nicholson. It chronicles the story of a stuffed rabbit and his desire to become real through the love of his owner.

I believe there are many reasons why we suffer, including a natural outcome of our experience of evil.  How much less suffering there would be in the world if everyone treated their neighbour as themselves and loved everyone!    However,  I also believe it is often necessary grace in disguise (yes I said grace).  I believe its effects make us stronger, but more importantly, like the little Velveteen Rabbit who becomes banged up and shabby on the outside (but beautiful, whole and real when he ‘dies’ -, through the love of his owner), sufferings’ effects help us to become more ‘real’.  I have experienced that it truly, like nothing else, helps us to shed our layers of falseness and less desirable qualities.  Sometimes difficult words, illnesses and circumstances help us to grow and change into better people and help us to know ourselves better (as we often don’t want to hear what others say we need to change).  Since I also have the grace of knowing this life isn’t the end, but more like our stuffed rabbit life experience of becoming mature souls that become truly ‘real’ or fully formed by the time of our death, I have learned to trust the often difficult circumstances life and God have sent my way…knowing God knows what He is doing far better than I.

I also liken our lives here on earth (our spiritual/soul formation) to the experience of being formed in the womb.  Anyone who knows a little of the hidden, intense and varied little cataclysms and evolutions and change that a zygote, embryo and fetus undergo to become a human being, can understand what I am trying to get at.  The creation of a human being, when viewed in the womb, can seem quite convoluted and messy (just like our lives can be), but oh what perfection in the immense, extremely intricate formation of a human being from two tiny cells containing the code of DNA!  Would God want anything less for our spiritual formation?  As conscious beings with free will though, we all have a constant choice to cooperate with the little trials of the path.  (I also liken the entire evolution of life on our planet and the human existence to a womb-like growth of the human race, but that’s for a whole other treatise on theoretical physics mixed with theology, and definitely for another time… you can see my previous writing  “Evolution as Creation?here.)

To round out this little ‘thought’ on the nature of suffering, I leave you with three additional things to ponder.  The first is a dream experience I had two days after the ‘inure‘ sentence.  I realize the symbolic nature of the dream may help explain our life walk and ‘test’ and the ‘negative’ experiences of suffering  that actually in God’s perfect plan may be His intended perfected ‘positive’, but that is only my opinion; the full understanding of it is reserved for the next life:

February 9, 2008 – approx. 5:30 a.m.

Dreamt I was going to take a test.  I saw the test assembled and when I saw it I saw at first a long negative (-) gash in brownish rust blood colour and I said – ‘It’s negative!’  But someone else pointed out to me – “No, look:  You’re not looking at the whole picture” (which was much bigger).  As I followed the “-” symbol on the test it became a long road that I walked down, and the road/symbol of the test was a long road of splintered pieces of reddish wood (negative sign (-) gashes of wood that looked like negative signs),  and it extended out down the road and as I saw the whole thing it actually made it into a long positive “+” sign, but it was in the shape of a cross.  It only became apparent that it was a huge giant positive symbol as you got further down the road of  what seemed a series of negatives…

The second is a purported New Year’s message from Mary from a visionary known as Maureen Sweeney-Kyle, from the website http://www.holylove.org.  The recent message is as follows and the end of it in particular speaks to what I have been trying to convey in this writing:

December 31, 2015
New Year’s Message

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Mary, Refuge of Holy Love says: “Praise be to Jesus.”

“It is the hour of assessment as to where the world in general is headed in the New Year. This will be a year of profound trials, as what is deep in hearts and spoken of in secret is acted out in the world. Your reigning president will be tested over and over as to just how weak a leader he is in matters of national security.”

“God’s Permitting Will is greatly tempted to allow even more significant natural disasters worldwide. Each nation’s weakest attributes will become even weaker, for strength is in the Lord.”

“The conscience of your nation and of the world will slowly be convicted of their lack of cooperation with God’s Will, as they become less enchanted with politics and more united in truthful leadership. The Refuge of My Immaculate Heart will become more important to many.”

“Continue to choose the rosary as your weapon against evil, especially the evil of abortion. The Truth that abortion is murder needs to be accepted in hearts before much of what I have spoken of can be avoided.”

“I am your Advocate and Mediatrix before the Throne of God. Your needs and petitions are My own. In all ways, however, we must be ready to accept God’s Will, which is all-seeing and all-knowing. You may not in your earthly life see the immediate value of each cross, but when you reach Heaven all this knowledge will be given to you.

I leave you lastly with a purported message from Jesus to another visionary, Janet Klasson, from the website http://www.pelianitoblog.wordpress.com. It also (coincidentally?) speaks to the theme that has emerged in my writings today:

Matthew 1:17 So all the generations from Abraham to David are fourteen generations; and from David to the deportation to Babylon, fourteen generations; and from the deportation to Babylon to the Messiah, fourteen generations.

“My beloved, do you see how intricately the plan of salvation has been drawn up? No detail has been left out. My plans are perfect and are in perfect balance; the end result will be perfection. Then do not doubt and do not fear, but hasten its fulfillment by making more fervent prayers and sacrifices. Within the perfect plan of God stands the imperfect human soul. Just as in the genealogy of the Messiah there were a multitude of imperfect human souls, yet they did not spoil the plan of God. So too, the imperfection of all humans from the time of the Messiah to now are not capable of derailing the perfect plan of God. All the imperfections of all humans put together are but a drop in the infinite ocean of my perfection. Do not despair, but the darker the days become, remember that infinite ocean of perfection and be consoled. My children—pray! I am near and where I am, perfection also dwells. Shalom, my children. Be consoled in the perfection of my birth.”

May this little writing today leave you with the peace of God as you continue your own journey down life’s path this coming year.  God bless!


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