This week’s writing is for all those souls out there who have said yes to God and may be experiencing escalated attack of the enemy because of it. I believe this particularly occurs with souls who are called, or who will be called, to work in a greater way for God that results in a great loss to Satan’s kingdom. In my case I am beginning to realize the reason I have experienced so much attack personally over the past few years is 1) because of the things God has allowed me to experience and 2) because I am sharing these experiences – writing to illuminate as many as will listen.
I share the following experiences in order to show you the protection available to us, and to teach you how to call on greater protection, should your need increase in proportion to your mission.
November 5, 2003 – Early Morning
I had a dream that Satan attacked me again – it was worse than the last dream (see The Face of Satan – Part VI). It was something like being held incapacitated while he attacked and tried to possess me. I recited three Hail Mary’s as before and he left. I was somehow in a church and a good entity came and was leading me down the stairs of this church. He/she was telling me/teaching me that I must learn well to defend myself more directly against Satan.
I started to wonder if there were a quicker prayer to have Satan leave, as one is quite agitated when this kind of thing is taking place – even in a dream.
Upon waking I resolved to discuss these dreams with my spiritual director, Father Kane. His advice, as I have mentioned elsewhere in this website, is to call on the protection of the Precious Blood of Jesus. He has also advised that it is helpful to pray this invocation over your conscious and subconscious mind, so that you will have extra protection while sleeping. The daily prayer of dedication is helpful in this if you have time to recite it each day.
November 19, 2003 7 a.m.
I dreamt there were demons trying to attack me all over my house. One particularly large force was in my bedroom. I could feel his evil presence. A character in the dream drew a very detailed artist’s picture of what he saw – it looked like a fire breathing dragon with the most hideous face – full of anger and malice.
I was agitated and was trying every kind of prayer – Hail Mary’s and asking the archangels for their protection… It was as if I was undergoing rigorous training on how best to confront and overcome demons. Father Kane asked if I had holy water. I said no, but I saw that the demon was afraid of it (holy water), so I asked Father Kane to bless some for me and I started to throw it at the demon.
In real life this translated to having my home blessed by a priest with holy water and continuing to have frequent blessings with anointing oil. Father Kane advises keeping holy water in your home and another friend suggested blessed salt (which I needed and used in a subsequent attack that lasted during Holy week one year.)
Tuesday, June 29, 2004 approx 4 a.m. (at our campsite)
Dreamt Satan was harassing me horribly with many demons helping him. A lot of chaos was being created and it centered around the back door entrance to my trailer, which is the master bedroom (where I was sleeping).
I called to a friend to come witness this. Then Satan attempted to create more chaos in the room where I was sleeping. I was becoming frightened as he was playing mind tricks with me. I knew I had to get to Father Kane.
Then in the dream I left the trailer and went into some house. An expert was there. This expert knew something was harassing me, but thought it was of ‘this world’. I saw the demons flying everywhere and said no, pointing to the ceiling where I could see demons flying and the areas of the ceiling would go black as they flew overhead.
I said to Father Kane, who was with me now in the dream: “I’m so lucky I have you or I’d be lost and in big trouble without your help.” I re-entered my trailer. Satan stood before me and kept changing shapes and trying to ram at me from various angles. He was seething in anger at me because I was entering a new phase of my service to God and was going to be taking many souls away from him. I had some very special mission and Satan wanted to try to frighten me to get me to stop. He was extremely frightening, but I noticed as he was trying to attack me like this that he could only get so close – there was a perimeter around me several feet wide that he could not enter or approach. Nevertheless, I was agitated.
I rose forcefully against Satan, crossing myself and told him to go. I told him that I WOULD NOT STOP my service to God. I realized I had to face him directly – square on. As I started crossing myself, I started calling Jesus. Then a male angel appeared, surrounded by shining light, and approached Satan with some power and backed him up against a wall.
Then Jesus came in, dressed as I have seen Him before – in a plain, white, girded robe. He came with other angels. I was so relieved! He defended me against Satan somehow. Then He changed into a lamb and walked toward me. As he got closer and my fear and sense of danger passed, I felt my feelings of love and longing for Him rise up and spill out of me. I started saying:
I miss you so much, my Beloved Lamb!” (over and over again)
Still in the form of a lamb he exited my trailer by the same rear door the attack had started at. I knew He heard my words of love and longing as He left, but He said nothing. I could tell, though, that He accepted my feelings. He had just come to defend me and left.
These three dreams highlight increasing personal attack and increasing personal strength in the spiritual battle. Please take a moment to reflect on where our strength lies! Help and protection is all around us. We but need to seek it. These experiences (and the experiences of many others out there who perhaps don’t speak about them) show that there is such a thing as spiritual warfare. It is unfortunate that Satan does not always present himself as ugly (see The Face of Satan Part VI), but sometimes in disguise as good, making it hard to distinguish his works. Most important though, is the truth that the power of God is much greater and that we have the protection of holy angels, Jesus and Mary in this battle.
If you are interested in further information on the issue of spiritual warfare, check out one of the links below:
www.catholicbible101.com/spiritualwarfare.htm
May God bless you abundantly in your journey.
Karen
Dear Karen,
You poor thing and I am so sorry all of this is happening to you.
I used to have many battles with the devil when I was a Protestant, (not that that had anything to do with it, so those who read this, please do not jump on my wagon).
When I was converting to the Catholic Church I was reading about the Saints (trying to choose one) and I read St. Faustina’s Diary. In that satan came to her and was throwing her things off of her dresser and causing all kinds of havoc in her cell. She wrote that she chose to ignore him. Jesus came to her and told her, “That He had seen what had happened and she did well to ignore him.”
From that day on I put that in place in my life. It is not to say he does not still try to bother me, after all his pride is what got him kicked out of heaven. I never speak his name anymore, or give to him the time of day and have not for years. His attacks are few and far between now (six years later) and never last as long as they did. (If someone wants to talk about him to me I call him the “d word” as I truly try never to let his name be on my lips)
To me all that was done on the Cross defeated him and he cannot have any glory or victory over me. To me he is sooooo done stick a fork in him.
You might try this and it may work for you. It did for me. I give him no thoughts, time of day or anything.
If he is attacking me I go under the shadow of the wings of our Father and stay there.
I will be praying for you. God Bless and I pray this stops for you +In the Name of the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit.
Love, Sandy