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After a summer hiatus it is time for me to continue the series, The Face of Satan.

As promised, this series is unfolding as I experienced it chronologically, highlighting the many ways our adversary attempts to stop our attempts to grow in holiness and serve God and others.  One of the experiences I share this week illustrates the all-out frontal attack Satan launches at a soul that has stepped out of his grasp and has chosen to serve God.

As the following dream experience shows, though, his attacks are of no harm to a soul that has chosen God, as God Himself protects it:

October, 2002 (exact date unrecorded)

I dreamed I was lying in my bed (which of course I was!).  I was awake and looked up.  Satan was hovering over me screaming obscenities and launching continuous verbal tirade at me.

I was totally at peace and unconcerned and unafraid because there was some kind of bubble dome over me that he could not penetrate and therefore he could do me no harm…

Let not a soul think that it is able to generate this peace itself.  God then showed me what I am of myself when he removes this protection – intense fear envelops the soul.  He showed me this to demonstrate that no soul should ever grow boastful or proud that it is courageously able to serve God without fear.  All these blessings come from God.

As you can imagine, I had begun to wonder at this point why I was experiencing so much satanic attack.  It is true that Satan wishes to ensnare all people, but he especially wishes to stop souls who have been called to serve God in the dramatic ways needed today when the world is full of so much evil and so many people are suffering from it.  Now that this website has been established and I am well into this – what you could call an expose – on Satan, I realize he was probably hell-bent (excuse the pun) on stopping me.

The picture started to become even clearer almost a year later, when I realized God was going to use me in a greater way:

 Tuesday, September 30, 2003 approx 3 a.m

Dreamed God lit up a sign in my staircase (that was somehow like an escalator) that was so bright it lit up the entire room/area.  I was in a large, dark old home and it was mine in the dream, but not mine in real life.

The sign was burning flame of gold letters that spelled out a word/message to me.  It stayed lit for some time, but I could not read what the letters said.  The letters were so large and long and tall and burning bright that I could not read them.  At first I thought I could (and if I did I don’t remember what it said), but I could not, so I called a friend over to help me read them.  I was so in awe and completely overcome with such love, power and majesty and I was so excited.  I said “What does it say, what does it say?”  “I can’t read it”

Then, before my friend could read the letters/message, God extinguished the light.  The darkness seemed so much greater than before now and I was so upset that I could not read the message and now it had been extinguished.  I said to my friend with sadness, but resignation, “God keeps us in such great darkness.”  At this point I was walking toward the cloakroom in the front lobby of this home.  I said to her, shaking my head “I don’t know why He keeps us in such great darkness, but I trust Him and I will keep walking in darkness if that is what He wants”.

I was so upset and disappointed that I had been unable to read the letters/message, because I love Him so much and am so eager for anything of Him and Jesus and Heaven because I miss it so much (because of the many things I’d been experiencing).  I felt especially upset with myself because the message was burning there for a time for me to read and I could not and felt it was my own inadequacy and fault.

I was in the living room (in the dream) or heading back to the living room, when God called me back to the cloakroom because He started to speak to me.  I went toward his HUGE, BOOMING VOICE, which was coming from the cloakroom (which was in darkness).  He spoke slowly, powerfully, booming and slightly gravelly, in great and awesome majesty and power.  (It reminded me of how they had Him appear speaking to Moses from the burning bush before He sent Moses on his mission.  I still tremble at the amazing awe it created and the power with which He spoke!)  He said:

SO THAT THOU SHALT NOT SUFFER BECAUSE OF THE FINITENESS OF YOUR MIND (and here was communicated to me something about my inability because of this finiteness), I SHALL ILLUMINE YOU TO READ MY WORD/LETTERS (not sure which) AND KNOW MY MESSAGE!

There are no words to describe this encounter with God.  His voice sounded like talking thunder and each word sounded like the stomp of a giant’s footstep on the earth.  I trembled for quite a while after I awoke from this dream and cannot convey just how humiliating this experience of my smallness was.

What is significant, though, in the sharing of this experience as part of an expose on Satan, is the dream that followed immediately after this one a couple of hours later:

Tuesday, September 30, 2003 approx 5:30 a.m.

Satan tried to deceive me in a dream after the last one – pretending he was God speaking to me.  It was a long convoluted and mostly unmemorable dream of him trying to get me to follow him on the pretext that he was God and would speak to me. 

He led me into a room and changed into an image that he knew would tempt me (regarding the purpose of a certain suffering) and as he stood in the corner he said I could ask him any question and he would answer me.  I was tempted, but trusted God and so I did not ask.  I don’t think I asked any questions.

Then he changed shape and became like a large lying mouth entity of some sort (I literally saw a picture of a sideways (lying) mouth) that spoke to me very weakly – so weakly he was whispering and I could hardly hear him.  I became suspicious at this point and started to recite the prayer to discern spirits.

He changed shape again and stood in front of me this time in the shape of a human.  I rose up against him with great immediacy, strength, purpose and firmness (mostly calm) and recited the prayer to discern spirits.  I mixed it up a little and had to repeat it because I was somewhat agitated.  I blessed myself with the sign of the cross and he disappeared.

The bottom line with experiences like this is that Satan will attempt to do whatever it takes to deter a soul from following and serving God, alternating tactics in his attempts to ‘take the soul down’.  As I have said before, however, once a soul decides for God, Satan has already lost most of his power.  Our strength and protection lie always in God and His son, Jesus.  We need to keep in mind that God is infinite and that Satan is a creature – a fallen one at that.  He only has the power we give him by being afraid or yielding to him.  His temptations are many and it is particularly notable that he has infiltrated much of the media, as seen in the rise of the occult in our broadcasting.  Without our realizing it, we are gradually becoming desensitized to the danger of the occult and new age language.  However, the Catholic Church, in particular, has a special strength through the seven sacraments because they give us divine grace, which shares in God’s perfection and God’s life.

Please take a moment to reflect where you are at in your spiritual life.  Are you one bound by Satan?  Are you one just starting to break away and afraid to go further?  Are you walking along the path and wondering if it is all worth it?  Are you serving God and suffering for it?  Don’t take the sharing of my experiences lightly.  For all of us our safe haven is with God.  It is a struggle, but it is so worth it!  I cannot even begin to describe the joy, beauty and love that await souls that choose God (love) instead of sin and Satan.  Don’t think for one minute that this life is not a spiritual journey with a destination after death.  Don’t waste the time we have each been given to grow in love.  One day, your time will come to an end…


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Breaking the Chains that Bind

In keeping with the information in the second writing in this series, you will begin to notice, as this series unfolds, that the images which will be linked to these writings will not focus on the evil spirits.

As Father Kane reflected in last week’s writing, these negative images have a way of working in our subconscious and can provoke feelings of fear, anxiety, restlessness and worry.  This website is all about the common good.  This common good is the truth of our God.  This series, therefore, while seeking not to focus on evil, is being shared to witness to the fact that such evil exists – a thing many people in our world no longer believe – a serious danger.

In keeping with this positive focus, all the images you will see in the coming weeks are going to be a representation (as close as I can find one in human images!) of the forces of good – angels etc. – that I have seen that overcome the forces of evil.  I will also include images that represent the truth of the spiritual climb out of sin and darkness and the powerful tools that we truly possess in this battle against Satan and the forces of evil.  The knowledge that evil exists as an entity unto itself, that it is necessary to spiritually renounce this evil (sin and all Satan’s works) and that we have great power and tools to do this, are things that Satan wishes to prevent us from knowing.

We do best to simply renounce Satan and all his works.  So, to that end, in the sharing of information, I will focus on the power of God and the help and protection that is available to all in the spiritual battle.  This website is about empowering and encouraging all who visit it – not provoking fear, worry or anxiety.  Jesus said it best when he said:

In the world you face persecution.  But take courage; I have conquered the world.”  John 16:33, Holy Bible, NRSV Catholic Edition, c. 1993


I have said these things to you while I am still with you.  But the Advocate, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, will teach you everything and remind you of all that I have said to you.  Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you.  I do not give to you as the world gives.  Do not let your hearts be troubled, and do not let them be afraid.” John 14:25-27, Holy Bible, NRSV Catholic Edition, c. 1993

And so I give you another example of my continuing walk in the spiritual battle, a battle common to us all:

Monday of Holy Week; March 26, 2002

I dreamt I returned to my house (real home) after a horrible day (I did have a horrible day in real life with regard to some incidents where I work at the gym – (n.b. this is a common, necessary ‘stripping’ which is done for our good as we climb higher on the spiritual path).  I found in the dream, after being in the home for a while that it had been broken into again and that I was robbed.  I was fearful that the perpetrator was still in the house so I went on a search.  I noticed that everything on the upstairs floor was a mess.  My jewelry boxes had been ransacked and my clothes I think.  I also noticed though that nothing of value  had been stolen (think about this for a minute – we often place so much emphasis on the surface, physical possessions and positions of our life, while neglecting the most important thing – our spiritual growth…) .  I knew this because as I looked at all of my possessions I knew it wouldn’t bother me if any of it had been stolen.  I could sense, however, an evil presence trying to get at me so I went back downstairs (the deeper levels of the subconscious) to try to find out what it was.

I tried to call 911 but was put on hold – I felt I had no-one to rely on and would have to help myself (this was true in that lay people, despite their best efforts, are not the best ones to direct souls on the spiritual journey unless they have experienced the climb themselves – even then, as this website seeks to be a companion or guidepost for your journey, there is no substitute for seeking competent spiritual help in the form of a priest, minister, spiritual director etc. to help you in the climb).

Next thing I know it is my deceased Grandmother talking to me on the phone – somehow describing to me what it is like to be dead and struggle to find yourself (she was speaking to someone else on the other end of the line and I could overhear them).  I am surprised that I can hear her talking because I figure it is not something the average person can do.  I’ m trying to explain to other people that I have this gift, but they’re not listening.  My Grandmother says with surprise ‘She can hear me talking!’ and I say ‘Yes, I can hear you and I will work with this and keep listening to you’.

I hang up the phone to go help myself (made a call in real life to my spiritual director – Father Kane!).  As I walk towards the door to exit my house I see an extensive set of knotted ropes all lined up (like fetters?) that the evil one is going to try to bind me, strap me and torture me with.  I say ‘uh-oh, he’s got the ropes out again’ – as if I know he’s tortured me with them before.

I walk right past them and him (the evil presence) and head determinedly to the door.  As I go to open the door a huge evil force tries to push me back and prevent me from leaving.  I catch a glimpse into the outside and it is absolutely black and stormy and terrifying (this represents the unknown and brave steps of the spiritual climb out of the darkness of sin, fear and chaos that the evil one tries to keep us chained in).  The evil force does not want me to have the strength and courage to exit even though the glimpse is scary.

I say something like ‘I’ve been here before and I’m going to walk through this to the light outside because I don’t want to be afraid of this anymore!’  As I keep walking it progressively gets lighter and lighter until it is sunny.  I am proud that I had the strength and courage to do it.  The evil presence has followed me, but I think he’s lost most of his power, because I turn to face him with one of my children in my arms (my most prized possessions) and I say:

I’m not interested in serving you – I want nothing to do with you (this is renouncing sin, Satan and all his works).  I want to serve God!”

I am turned to face the presence quite strongly and I am standing firmly holding my child and I repeat myself a few times.

All of a sudden the unseen evil force turns into a wolf and leaps up to attack me at my throat, I think, as if he’s finally shown his true form and decides to just launch one final all out frontal, undisguised attack in fury at me.  I stand firm holding my child as he jumps at me and I make some comment about how I think maybe this has been the way I’m supposed to have reacted (with courage).  I want to try the new way (God’s way).  I woke up in a cold sweat (who wouldn’t!) and a little concerned, so I invoked the protection of the Precious Blood over me and my family (prudent spiritual protection).


This dream represents a powerful psychic shift from the bondage and slavery to sin, to the health and light of choosing to walk in God’s way – the way of love.  It is an uphill climb.  It is difficult, but it is the best path in the end.  It is one that, despite the pain and hardships, you will truly be overjoyed you had the courage to take.  In fact, you will be aghast that you might not have made the step to walk this path as you get further along it.  I think the following excerpt from the diary of St. Faustina, which I have quoted from before, illustrates this point very nicely:

One day, I saw two roads. One was broad, covered with sand and flowers, full of joy, music and all sorts of pleasures. People walked along it, dancing and enjoying themselves. They reached the end without realizing it. At the end of the road, there was a horrible precipice; that is, the abyss of hell. The souls fell blindly into it; as they walked, so they fell. And their number was so great it was impossible to count them.  And I saw the other road, or rather, a path, for it was narrow and strewn with thorns and rocks and the people who walked along it had tears in their eyes, and all kinds of sufferings befell them. Some fell down upon the rocks, but stood up immediately and went on. At the end of the road there was a magnificent garden filled with all sorts of happiness, and all these souls entered there. At the very first instant, they forgot all their sufferings.”  (Divine Mercy in My Soul:  Diary of Saint Maria Faustina Kowalska. c.1993 Congregation of The Sisters of Our Lady of Mercy (Diary, 153).

Father Kane recommends a classic book written about this journey called The Pilgrim’s Progress, by John Bunyon.  By the name pilgrim we can see that it is about a sacred journey where problems ambush the traveller.  This book sheds light on the struggle of walking the good way.  According to Father Kane, it is full of insights and spiritual gems and is well worth the read.

Don’t be fooled.  We are all walking on the road of our spiritual journey right now – here on earth.  Which road will you choose?


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Earlier on in these writings I shared with you a recent spiritual dream of a sign to come for humanity and the groups of people who would be most unprepared for this coming sign.  One group, most seriously lost, was shown to be a group of souls practicing witchcraft and the occult.  These are a part of humanity that has unfortunately been seduced into worshipping and practicing evil.

The following dream – one of my earlier spiritual experiences – shows a behind the scenes peak at the spiritual battle that is raging particularly forcefully these days.  However, this battle is an unseen warzone for the most part.  We only see the repercussions in the temporal circumstances of our lives.  How much easier it would be to fight the battle if the enemy was seen and more known.  Perhaps this is why I have been experiencing these negative spiritual dreams – to shed a little light on this hidden battle…

November 4, 2001

Dreamt a friend and I somehow ended up in a meeting hall that was for satanic rituals/meetings.  I think we were Christian reporters.  There was no-one in the room but us, but some bad leader (Satan) was showing us his stage with curtains all over it with squiggly black lines.  These black lines were the names of souls who were worshipping Satan.

I said I couldn’t believe people could be sucked into doing this.  Why would they want to?  I felt so awful for them.  I told my companion:

 ‘We have to get down on our knees here and now and pray for them!” 

 I didn’t feel like I knew how to praise God and pray and ask for His help, so I kneeled and just started singing like a child a song I know from my childhood at church.  My friend joined in with me and I could feel and see a warm yellow-white light growing like a ball in front of us.  I said:

 “Can you see and feel that?  God is coming close in answer to our prayer – look!  The lines (names) on the stage and curtains are fading!”

I started to sing spontaneously in harmony, making up words to the verses that were beautiful and from the heart.  I was crying with happiness.  The Light became like a huge glow over me.  I just basked in it.  As it lifted after I finished singing we saw that the curtains had been totally cleansed of names.  I felt a great happiness at helping save so many souls, but the being on the stage was not happy with us at all.

He then left and a letter was sent to us that was many sheets of paper with symbols all over them – it was some kind of satanic coded threat.  I couldn’t understand any of it, so I brought it to Father Kane for him to interpret because I knew he would make sense of it (and indeed he has made sense of the ‘threats’ I have experienced in the years following this dream…).

Next thing I know my friend and I are going to our office next to the room we had been in to sit down at two typewriters to type out messages to try to help people by bringing them knowledge.  The information was to go to good people to help fight the battle against evil.  It was like we were supposed to be producing a newsletter (this website?).  There was so much work to do!

And indeed, there is much work to do.  Father Kane refers to prayer for this type of circumstance as ‘heavy prayer’.  It is called ‘heavy’ because it is intense prayer that is most disliked by Satan and his cohorts because it works directly against him and works to save followers from his grasp.  It is prayer that is not to be taken lightly or frivolously.  It is serious business and should be treated very seriously.  We have great need to put on the ‘whole armor of God’:

Finally, be strong in the Lord and in the strength of his power.  Put on the whole armor of God, so that you may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil.  For our struggle is not against enemies of blood and flesh, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers of this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places.

Therefore take up the whole armor of God, so that you may be able to withstand on that evil day, and having done everything, to stand firm.  Stand therefore, and fasten the belt of truth around your waist, and put on the breastplate of righteousness.  As shoes for your feet put on whatever will make you ready to proclaim the gospel of peace.  With all of these, take the shield of faith, with which you will be able to quench all the flaming arrows of the evil one.  Take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.  Ephesians 6:10-17, Holy Bible,  NRSV, Catholic Edition

In the donning of this armor we do well to especially arm ourselves with the Rosary.  As it asks the mother of Jesus, Mary, to pray for us, it has great power in combatting evil.  Even though I am a mother of six I have struggled to complete 15-20 decades of this prayer daily because of the things I have seen…It has been difficult, and I have had to give up many things, but I would be nowhere else.  I ask, if you have the time, for you to pick up your rosaries once again.  Even if you have only time for one decade, or five, it will be of great service to your own soul, as well as others.

And for those readers who are not Catholic, please pray in whatever way you are most comfortable, for the salvation of souls.  This can be the most simple, childlike conversation with God in your own words.  All prayer is valuable in the eyes of God and prayer is greatly needed at this time!  If you choose to invest some time in ‘heavy prayer‘ for the circumstances I have described above, please do not forget – as I have mentioned loudly elsewhere – to protect yourself first!  Invoke the protection of the Precious Blood of Jesus.  It is like a dome protective shield which the darts of the enemy (which I have also seen!) cannot penetrate.

In discussing the mounting evil in the world with Father Kane he brought up as well the growing negative influence of much of the media through movies and television.  He commented that even though many of these productions may not be classed as ‘evil’, they are nevertheless and can affect our consciousness just in the viewing.  This in turn loads the subconscious or unconscious and it can become more active there – affecting us negatively.

I wish I could ‘download’ everything I have seen these past ten years in one writing so that you could see why I speak with such urgency!  Even if I could, though, you probably wouldn’t be able to take it all in at once, so I just ask you to do what you can in prayer each day and I thank you for any extra effort you are able to make in the swinging of your sword!

God bless you all.


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