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Prayer is my constant companion, especially in the preparatory work for this website, so this week I again prayed for God to work through me to bring to light that which He wished.  In response I experienced two sentences quietly spoken by God in the dream state early Tuesday morning.  There was no dream accompanying them, but the nature of the two sentences made me know immediately which spiritual experience to share this week.  As the title indicates this week’s posting has to do with the mystery of creation.  Read with me:


Dreamt I was sitting in a room with a girlfriend and a man.  They were both studying to become doctors or something.  I listened to them and watched them studying and said to myself:

“I wouldn’t want to have to understand and work at all this again (college etc.).  I don’t have time in my life right now for formal study to learn.'”

Then I found myself sitting on the edge of a bed and I see a cross on the wall in front of me.  It is blue, I think, and has Jesus on it and Mary at His head.  I start praying to God while I see my friend kneel on the floor taking or writing notes about what she is studying and learning.  The man is standing near to her.  They are both on my right as I sit on the right side of this bed.

All of a sudden I am entering into another plane of existence and was lain back on the bed.  It is like a small hole opens up from another plane in front of me and expands over and onto me and I enter into it.  The light of God is here.  I am seeing interiorly and the exterior world is blocked out.  I start to speak to God, but only I can see what is happening.  The people in the room with me can hear me but not see what I see.

Then I see God in front of me.  It/He is a small two ring sphere of two circles of white light/energy inter-looped over each other.  The two rings of light are looped over each other in opposite directions to form a ball (one ring vertical – one ring horizontal).  They were at 90 degree angles to and over each other (the circle rings crossed each other in the centre to form a perfect sphere).  This light was spinning and vibrating (had movement).  This ball of energy was then shown to join others to make up a string of light/energy balls, joined together.  I say to God as I look at this double ring ball (God) ‘You’re a ball of pure energy, aren’t you?!’

Then I see a long strand of these white balls of the same size all attached together in a thin strand spiralling up toward Heaven.  It looks like DNA – woven together.  As I travel upward near the top where I see it continues into Heaven – it seems to be unwound into a single string of these white beads.

Then as I ascend this single strand I come into an opening and I see God the Father in front of me in the shape of a huge radiating circle of radiating bands of energy and light square in front of me – close.  He appears in the radiating circle of white light form again that I have seen in dreams at least twice before.  I am talking to Him as I experience all of this – asking Him questions and marvelling at what I am seeing.  I say ‘Oh Papa!’  This was the interior vision as I was lifted up to God and shown this DNA like scene on the way up and then the scene changed to show me what looked like man’s evolution as recorded below.

Then the scene changes and I am in a field with a hill that I start to climb to my left.  It has a trough in the ground running down through it.  I start to see all sorts of prehistoric animals.  I can tell they are prehistoric because they look like no animals now.  I think while in the dream that they look like palentolithic animals (paleolithic?).  (I looked this up on-line afterwards because I know very little about evolution and found out it was called the Paleolithic period with low, middle and upper stages, which I did not know personally before I dreamed it).  The animals I saw were funny looking, but not dinosaurs.  They were after that.

Then at the bottom of the hill I start to see little short people that look like men/primitive men (they had larger foreheads), but definitely men, walking on twos amongst these animals.  They were fighting them and foraging.  They looked a little barbaric and unrefined.  They were wearing hooded clothing.  I think I saw them wander around individually.  I remember seeing no cohesive unit of them together.  I continue to climb this hill to my left and as I did I saw a creature that looked like a sloth and I said to the Father:

“Help me understand what I am seeing, Father.  I don’t understand!”

As I get to the top of the hill the men start to look more like men of our day.  A bunch of them are building a rudimentary building, lifting blocks and putting a flat roof on them – building a shelter of some sort.  They look more refined and better dressed and more coordinated in their efforts – working together.  It is as if as I climb the hill I am seeing the evolutionary chain of man and how the barbaric, unrefined man worked and lived at the bottom of the hill in a crude, singular way.  Then as I climb to the top men are more evolved and starting to work together, build things and behave more civilly.

All the while that I am seeing this vision I am talking out loud with my voice to God the Father while I am in the vision.  Those in the room hear everything I am saying to God while I am interiorly seeing this vision and they witness me having this vision, but they can see nothing of what I see.  God is the most amazing thing I have ever seen!  I cannot even describe or explain what I have seen today.

I went on-line later that morning to research this amazing dream that absolutely left me reeling.  I discovered, while researching DNA, that the date in history they call as the most important discovery of all time – Watson & Crick’s discovery of the double helix nature of DNA – was February 28, 1953 which is exactly 53 years to today’s dream – also a February 28th!  I felt at the time that this could not have been a coincidence. 

I truly did not understand what I saw or why I was shown it.  I did what I have done with most of my spiritual experiences – pondered them.  I did feel almost immediately, though, that I had just been given enlightenment that in some way illuminated the truth of the first chapter of John:

“In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.  He was in the beginning with God.  All things came into being through him, and without him not one thing came into being.  What has come into being in him was life, and the life was the light of all people.  The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness did not overcome it.”  John 1:1-5, Holy Bible, NRSV, Catholic Edition, c.1993

I started doing alot of reading about DNA as a result of this dream.  One book that I subsequently read was The Language of God:  A Scientist Presents Evidence for Belief,  by Dr. Francis Collins.  It is a book that attempts to reconcile faith and science.  I have a feeling that the above dream may flesh out his theories.  In addition I found an article in Stanford Review while researching this posting that synopsizes a recent lecture by Dr. Collins.  The last two paragraphs of this article may be of relevance to today’s writing.  In the meantime, another piece of the puzzle came my way in June, 2007 when I happened to walk past a newstand and see an issue of Scientific American that immediately made me think of this dream vision:


Unfortunately I did not have time to read the entire article at the newstand, but it did indeed show my little ‘ball’ as the ‘molecule’ that started it all, and was discussing something about the requirement for self-programming for it to evolve.  I was excited to see this in a scientific publication and felt that science is part of the Spirit leading us into all the truth.  I think it may be close to ‘explaining and understanding creation’ and I believe and hope that religion and science can indeed meet in the middle in truth.  I have felt for some time now that if you take the truth of God as an absolute on the one hand and work backwards, and then take the truth that science is gradually revealing to us and work forward, that if they are both truth then they will meet in the middle. 

So, into the great debate I offer this experience for discernment by others far more knowledgeable than I.  I would love for this and other experiences to be scrutinized for truth by scientists, theologians and metaphysical researchers, so that we can come to greater understanding of God and Man.  I invite the reader to do his own investigation of this profound issue.  Feel free to click on the links above to further explore the hypothesis presented in today’s writing.  As for me, the more I experience of God, the more I realize I know nothing…

As a parting thought I share those two sentences quietly spoken by God in a dream that made me know that this is the experience I should be sharing with you this week.  I leave them also for you to ponder and discern, in light of today’s sharing:

You are the city of Spirit (meaning us – His creation)You give Me form.


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God - Sphere of Light


Today I would like to share a profound spiritual dream from 2004 that illustrates the power of prayer.  In the process of preparing this writing I performed my customary search for photo images that were relevant to the sharing to bring the words alive for the reader.  I have to tell you, though, that I really struggled in trying to find an image to illustrate what I ‘saw’ in the following experience of God.  I did my usual search through Photobucket and Google Images, only to realize I was wasting my time!  Why on earth did I expect to find a picture of God?

So, the image you see above was the closest thing I could find with my limited time that symbolically portrays what I saw.  Today I think the words of the dream will have to be left standing pretty much on their own in illustrating something that just can’t be illustrated.

I offer this experience today because I hear and see all around me the difficulties, trials, pain, sufferings, discouragement and weariness of many.  I share in it also!  It is not easy to keep walking this earthly life, especially these days, even with faith.  How much more difficult it must be without it…

Sometimes the only thing one can do is pray.  The funny thing about prayer, though, is that it is invisible to our earthly eyes.  Often we pray without really knowing if it is doing anything, because we can’t see it.  Sometimes we are fortunate to see the outcome of our prayer, when circumstances are mitigated, loved ones are healed or requests are granted.  Many times, though, things do not go as we expect and it seems that our prayers are for naught.  It would be so much easier if we could see behind the scenes and understand why it seems God answers some prayers, but not others.

In truth, no prayer is unheard by God.  However, it takes great trust, when things don’t seem to go our way, that He is answering our prayers in perfect ways.  Unfathomable ways.  Every now and then it is helpful to have a little encouragement in the journey, and the following experience was, for me, and hopefully will be for you, an incredible motivator and consolation.


I dreamt I was on my living room couch preparing to put food in my mouth and then I was struck – BOOM!by an enormous energy blast that sent me lying back on the couch unable to move or speak.  I was frozen.  Then my mother (the character in the dream was my human mother, dressed in blue – it did not appear to me that it was Mary) walked in the front door of my house and I walked up to her in spirit because my body was left immobile on the couch.

She motioned to me without speaking to come and sit with her in my living room to watch something.  The television screen in front of us opened by itself and I was then shown pictures of me speaking to people in various snapshot scenes outside of the current time/space.  As I watched this I was also speaking to another character in the dream – another mother – and was telling her information about God and was speaking to her about the Rosary and other things.

Then on this television screen I was shown energy blasts and changing scenes of me speaking to various people I know and love, and saw myself giving them information.  Over and over again I was shown these energy blasts one after the other (boom, boom boom!) which showed me different scenes.  I was frozen in time, but I was shown I was able to help all these people.  In the moment I was frozen I was shown how my desire, prayers, words of good intention and wanting to help others goes out to each person.

Then, after being shown this screen of flipping pictures of me and my words in many people’s lives I was taken in spirit out of time and space to somewhere far away – like outer space, but hard to describe.  It was not dark.  It was a place of MASSIVE energy with a soft beige lighted background and in front of me was God.

God appeared as this energy – luminescence – FIERY, ELECTRICAL THING – that looked like a round depthless circle of radiating energy bands, with electrical fire crackling across It and around It constantly.  I was then shown that each time I acted or did things to offer myself to others in prayer, acts of suffering, etc., God would fire a ball of energy that welled up from inside His being and send it – BOOM!!! – at very high speed, like a hurtling energy ball of crackling fiery energy, into that person’s life.  WHAT I SAW WAS AN AMAZING AND UTTERLY INDESCRIBABLE FORCE OF ENERGY!!!  I understood that these balls of energy came as a result of my acts and that God would then sent these bursts – these electrical balls of light and energy – into the people as a result of my requests.

I saw God from an angle (as if I could see His front and slightly behind Him as well).  He appeared to be a ‘flat’ circle of radiating energy and light, but I knew He was actually a radiating circle of depthlessness.  I refer to Him as depthless, because although He appeared flat from this angle, I saw that the fiery balls were drawn from somewhere deep inside Himself – from inside His epicenter (the very centre of the radiating circle of light).  I could see that the energy balls were drawn from somewhere inside His being, so even though His face, or front, appeared flat to me, I knew that He was depthless.  (This is very hard for me to describe and I feel that no matter what I say I cannot do the experience justice with human words).

Then I was all of a sudden back in my body on the couch and rose in utter amazement and JOY!, JOY!, JOY!  I started to run around the room telling everyone and screaming “I’ve seen God! I’ve seen God!”  No-one believed me, but I proved it to them by telling them what I had seen in the flash of time when I travelled out of time and space ‘to’ God to see what my actions were procuring for others.  I’ll never forget the sight of seeing this energy Magnificence, like some science fiction energy vortex/plane/circle.

In this dream the intention was to show me how God sent these energy blasts to people to help them in response to my requests (prayer).  As I gave this information to people to make them realize I had been ‘there’ in this dream, they misunderstood and thought I was elevating myself.

In response I said:

 “No!!! Joy upon joy upon joy!!!  This is how my actions are helping others!!!”

It is indeed very hard for me in writing to share the utterly profound nature of this dream as I experienced it.  These experiences differ from ordinary, everyday occurrences and leave a profound mark on the one that experiences them.  Also telling is the way that an experience like this changes a person, in a way only God can!  The vividness of my many experiences, even those in the dream state, have left me so profoundly changed, that this change, from who I was ten years ago, to who I am today, stands also as my witness to the truth of God.

All I ask from you in response to this sharing is that you never, even for a minute, underestimate the power of your prayers, acts and sufferings.  Do not give up, even though you cannot see the fruits of your labour!  God wastes none of it and Oh what joy you will have in Heaven one day when you see what you have done…


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This year the spiritual theme of the Ottawa Catholic School Board is “We Care for God’s Creation.”  The emphasis then, in addition to the regular curriculum, is the instilling of respect and care for our environment in our children .  The following is from the Ottawa Catholic School Board Website:



We Care for God's Creation

2008-2009 Spiritual Theme
The Board is pleased to announce the launch of our new Spiritual Theme for the 2008-2009 school year — We Care for God’s Creation. Keeping with the Gospel value of Stewardship of Creation, the new theme includes the elements of sacredness of creation, the value of human life, wellness, care for the environment, and global awareness.

This theme also forms a bridge to last year’s theme – Who is My Neighbour? Stewardship for Creation will have a Justice dimension. Jesus calls us to open our lives to all who need our love and care across the globe. For instance, most affected by global warming will be the people of Africa and low-lying parts of Asia like Bangladesh.

Part of this whole-system responsibility for environmental education includes modelling environmentally sound practices in our facilities and operations. These practices are outlined in a Report of the Working Group on Environmental Education, endorsed by the Ministry of Education. Our students and staff are actively engaged in activities that demonstrate care for Creation including the environment, the welfare of others, and personal wellness.


In keeping with this theme of the stewardship of creation, it seemed to me that Earth Day was a good time to share with you a dream/vision I was given in 2005.  In it I was literally shown a split screen of what the earth looked like at the time of it’s creation and how it looks today.  I was dismayed at the stark contrast!  The issue of our environment has been under more serious consideration in recent years because we are becoming more aware that how well we have, or have not been, stewards of God’s creation is reflected in the state of our environment.  We do need to clean up our act so that the living environment for ourselves, our children and future generations is a more healthy one.  Underlying all of this, though, is an ingredient which is often overlooked in the secular view.  The earth is God’s creation:
God blessed them, and God said to them, “Be fruitful and multiply, and fill the earth and subdue it; and have dominion over the fish of the sea and over the birds of the air and over every living thing that moves upon the earth.  God said, “See I have given you every plant yielding seed that is upon the face of all the earth, and every tree with seed in its fruit; you shall have them for food.  And to every beast of the earth, and to every bird of the air, and to everything that creeps on the earth, everything that has the breath of life, I have given every green plant for food.”  And it was so.  God saw everything that he had made, and indeed, it was very good. (Gen. 1:28-31 Holy Bible, NRSV, Catholic Edition c.1993)
It was very good.  Unfortunately we do not have to look far to see that it is not very good today.  It is my hope that the following will help to inspire you to consider the ways you are being a good steward of God’s creation.  And let us not forgot, amongst our physical efforts, to imbue the world with our prayer intentions for a healthier planet.  We, as humans, do not really understand how prayer works, or just how powerful it can be.  In an experience of personal motivation God also graced me with a dream/vision that showed me a small snippet of just what prayer really does and I will be sharing this for your discernment in future…





Garbage Mountain - Philippines

Garbage Mountain - Philippines


 April 28, 2005

I had a dream where I was part of a small team/expedition.  We had found the path to climb Mt. Everest, I think it was.  It became Mt. Kilimanjaro after descending.  I and another (a man was leading me) told others:  “We’re going to climb to the summit of Mt. Everest.”

We turned to the right and followed the narrowest of trails.  It was a straight line of blue crystal looking material laid in a very thin line in the snow.  We climbed it.  I and my companion reached the peak so quickly I was surprised – I don’t even remember the climb, just the start on this beautiful crystal blue trail and then arriving at the summit.

The top had become a tourist sight now though.  There were tables and a restaurant or diner for serving food.  I sat at a table with my companion on the very edge of this peak/cliff.  It was so high and on a precipice that you had to be careful not to back up too much or you’d fall off the side.

I didn’t sit or eat anything because I was upset and dismayed at how trashy and touristy even this place had become.  People seemed to have made the climb and spot of such former pristine beauty a sullied tourist spot.

I cried for the former unspoiled beauty of the world and was all of a sudden shown in split screen what this mountain looked like WAY BACK – at the time of its original creation.  I longed for and much preferred this natural, pristine, exquisite, simple beauty and I began to cry as God was showing me how simple, majestic, beautiful and pristine the world had been when created.  Then, on the other side of the split screen I saw it today – so concrete, dirtied, sullied, trashed and commercialized.  People were so ignorant of what they had lost.

Then, on the beautiful side of the split screen on this pristine, breathtaking, fresh, cool mountain with beautiful breezes, the Light that was God broke out over the peak.  I moved closer and was crying at the heartbreak of such spoiled beauty and also because I miss my God so much.

As I walked and approached the top of this pristine peak I cried “Papa, I miss You so much!” over and over again as I gently sobbed.  What beauty!  I don’t know which made me sadder – the missing and longing for my God or the sight of such pristine, clean, fresh, airy, magnificent beauty made absolutely chokingly trashy, hardened and commercialized by humans – OH! the loss of the world as God gave it to us!  This struck me most profoundly…

In speaking with Father Kane about this issue, he offered his own personal experience of this contrast in the mission fields of Peru.  On the one hand there are beautiful, mountainous areas, relatively untouched by humans, with tall vegetation that make for a beautiful experience of nature.  However, in the big city of Lima one finds a shantytown in the desert and because of their desert conditions they have to have water trucked in from outside sources.  The levels of pollution, however, make them unable to be sure of the safety of the water source, and so they have to boil it.  The appalling conditions of local dumps, where children forage for anything that will earn their families money  (see Father Kane’s Easter Message) also create a sad pictorial of this contrast.  He has found, however, that because these people have such warm hearts and wonderful commitment within their families, they manage to live with good human values in spite of the sub-human conditions and poverty.

In essence the problems we are experiencing environmentally are another offshoot of the fallen nature of man.  Humanity’s greed, materialism, lack of consideration for neighbour and the quest for more, better, faster, without due consideration of outcome, has become humanity’s industries without becoming stewards –  where people are thoughtfully responsible for the management of God’s resources.  We must become better stewards, both now and in the future.

May this dream sharing strike you most profoundly this Earth Day as well…

















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